The Whitewashing of History
Thursday, May 27, 2004
After this weird shady happening, i gave up on jdate.. I mean, the people on it are all weird.
Paging Bill Whittle. Bill Whittle.
I mean, I have definitely talked to like 15 guys from it and met a few, and the only semi-normal one (out of the ones i have met) is going away for the summer and 'only wants to be friends.'
Supply and Demand...
whatever. its all good. I mean, jake and i were just friends for months before he asked me out... heh. no, i dont have expectations with this kid.
Danger, Will Robinson...
hes kind of um i don't know the word but he got really strange lately. Whatever.
This may be his last moment of salvation...
And who knows what Julia was going to tell me? LoL. Well, anyway, I am dropping the crime scene class because my parents are having some money problems and I probably have to go home for a week or two.
Didn't they just fork over 400k$ for your apartment?
Just so I can see some family and friends, since there has been alot of stuff going on recently. Also, I really hope to hit up the shore with my gdubbers!
Book my trip to Katelyn's, Admiral Kolchak...
I mean, it would be so much fun to go down to the skeevy parts of the shore (wildwood, AC, etc.) with Beck and Jules and them.
Skeevy. You heard it here first.
And a short hills trip with Gelber is definitely in order. And I really want to go to NYC with johnny to see a play! He knows way more than I do about good plays...
Lifestyle decision...
Well, these past 3 or so days have been pretty bad. I think I want to go shopping again. But, I have no money to spend and I don't really need anything... Hrmf. I am trying to get my mom to let me go to Paris to visit an old friend who is studying abroad there next semester. She said she doesn't have the money, but I know that isn't overly true. FREQUENT FLYER MILES, DUDE! Well, whatever. There is so much I want to see. I hate how they won't let me for visit michelle in Taiwan. They won't let me visit Kavita in Dubai. They won't let me visit Bombay. Bah! I mean, Michelle is from Taipei. It isn't like she is from a little tiny village in east asshole, taiwan. Whatever...
Wow. Let's just trapse (sp.) around the world...
So I have turned kinda jappy.
SAY IT AIN'T SO!
Not bitchy, but I really enjoy the finer things in life...
You don't say?
Like burberry (not nova check) bags, and ellen tracy bags, and gucci sunglasses, and dior... ahh whatever.
Do you notice the contradiction or is it beyond you?
I am allowed to go a little overboard every once in a while. I want to go shopping in Paris -- I just watched the sex in the city finales a few days ago and it reminded me of that.
Consider Oslo: It could help your sex life.
But I still haven't given up my great music -- like, i still listen to sublime and my good ole jersey music. But, I have also expanded my horizons. I LOVE jazz and the beckster got me into euro shit, specially french rap. GRAR!
cf. Her comments on my taste in music. Oh, that part at the end was her Dean Scream.
Do u think its weird when people just sit in their apartment and tell u they are going out but really just stay online? yeah, me to. haha! i heart u guys!
uhh...Why would they tell you that, deary?
Anyway, yeah so I have been just chilling lately, and going to the gym like a banchee but I need to start doing something more productive, whether it be volunteering or working at PotBelly which i think is what I am going to try to do. Either that or Dean & Deluca in G-town.
PotBelly? Now that's irony!
Totally random -- has anyone else been noticing swarms of cicada flying past their windows? Because I came out this morning and I had like 20 on my window and some of them were doing it... The freak me out...
Well, tonight we are going out. I think we are doing 1223 if we decide not to go club. I really hate clubs, so I hope 1223 sticks. Im willing to do the Bistro this weekend if anyone wants to...
There are...proletariat there.
So I have been thinking, it has been the longest I have gone without sex um like EVER.
Some love the chalk.
So I need to meet someone soon or I am going to seriously go crazy. Okay, that was prolly too much info, but I needed to get that out.
Much too much...
So, to recap... cicada ewww.... jewish boys weird... gym good... gw bad... paris yummy... jersey shore YAY!!!!!!!!!
I feel dumber for reading that.
all done byebye
maybe the boy isn't so bad after all. but life still sucks.
Lowering the standards, in the process selecting...
im a horrible person. someone i know just died and all i can think about is how i hate looking like this.
Manic, meet depressive. Manic, depressive.
i got to the gym every day and what do i get for it? i look like this. maybe god is trying to tell me something... maybe god is trying to say don't waste ur time working out because u will always be fat ugly and miserable.
I doubt He has time for your sniveling in a world like this.
maybe thats it. right now, other than my great apartment and great friends, i have nothing.
Oh, terrible. Do you ever consider the existential plight of others, even in your own City?
i feel down all the time, and maybe i should stop bottling everything up. maybe i shouldn't let it get me this far.
Maybe you should stop bitching and, oh, I don't know do something you're practiced with (cf. good at) - suck it up.
maybe i shouldn't be unrealistic and just lead a hermit-a-rific life and never leave my wonderful apartment and just invite people here.
To Versailles.
i hate going out in public and feel like people are looking at me and thinking how disgusting i am.
Deathspiral of negative push-polling.
i hate how people think that just because im not the skinniest or prettiest, that i don't have feelings and that they can walk all over me.
Sorry kid.
i hate going out in public. i just hate it. i mean, if i could, i would never leave here.
Recluse.
i would get a home gym and take classes online and not leave until i was the way i want to look.
But who would correct how you look, Pecola?
i don't know what it is about bad news that makes all my feelings come out. am i upset at the boy for totally shunning me?
Yes.
am i mad at myself for being a drunken retard?
Yes.
am i mad at myself for just looking this way?
Yes.
am i upset that a friend died? i don't know!
What?
i don't know how to distinguish the way i feel, and i don't think i ever have.
uhh...seek Professional Help.
just when it gets to be too much, i shut down. and tonight was the icing on the wonderful shut down cake. i just need time to decipher my feelings, time that i don't have.
The inexorable progress of man...
i went out and bought all this shit i can't afford this weekend to try and make myself feel better but it obviously didn't work.
Therefore, when calculating Net Present Value, we take the present cash inflow and discount it over time..
I think this is alot more than just one boy and the news of a friend dying. i think this is actually about me. i just don't know what about me it is.
Manic Depression?
i don't like me right now. but i don't know what i don't like. im a semi-mess.
Immolation. The Death of Seasons, so to speak.
but i put on a happy face outside my apartment. hell, i put one on inside my apartment when i have company. i just need to start showing emotion.
Egads...
some people say things continually that upset me and i say nothing. some people don't know how much they offend me.
Would you say their existence irks you,
and sometimes its just as stupid as a 100 lb girl calling herself a fatty. that just really irks me.
Very irksome.
i miss amanda so much because she totally understands me. i can tell her everything and not be ashamed. i feel like i have to hide so much from so many other people.
Interesting.
i miss megan menesale for making me laugh when i feel like this and making me feel better. it sucks living alone and far away from everyone because when i feel like this, i don't know how to make myself feel better.
I'd like to solve the puzzle: SUCK IT UP?
CORRECT!
ive always had someone else to do that. i just feel awful, im talking about how i feel and someone just died. i really need to stop being so selfish and concerned about my feelings. bleh!
Closer.
Well scratch the part about aaron being nice...
and 5-23-04...always in out hearts <3
not a good day. got a ton of bad news within a 10 minute span. just shoot me. please.
Bolshoi sympathizes.
more date update
i just felt like he wasn't the same person i had met online.
There are inherent risks in finding someone online.
he was very shy, opposed to the person online who would say anything.
Cat caught his tongue...and sliced it out a la Lechter.
And then i can't deal with shy ones because im very loud and outgoing. he was just too timid. a nice guy, nothing there.
While confirming my previous estimates, it fortunately saves him from annihilation.
someone i would like to be friends with, but thats all. And I feel bad because he is like upset with the way things went, im guessing. He doesn't exactly want to talk to me, and its weird.
Cause...meet Effect. Cause, effect.
(i got sick last night and i asked if he was feelin alright and he just answered the question and thats about it.) I figured if there was nothing, we'd still be friends because we have talked so much and learned so much about eachother, but I guess not. I dunno. I hear he has a pretty tightly woven group of friends that it is hard to infultrate.
Spellcheck!
Asked and answered, very smart move - Ollie North guided this young soul.
But I mean, I like the person online, but in person, it was kind of different, a disappointment. Physically, he wasn't overly bad, just too small. only 5'10 and tiny bone-structure.
Several inches above the average for men. I'm sorry kid, but you lucked out.
I felt like I towered over him wearing my boots. He would be fine with a new haircut. He also wasn't dressed appropriately, which sort of turns me off. If a guy isn't going to atleast look decent the first time you meet them, when are they ever going to? And I don't care what it is, as long as its appropriate.
See previous post in regards to Yellow Nikes.
I felt so bad about the date, that i wouldn't let him pay for me. i took out my wallet and slapped down a 20 on the table. It was just akward. He is just akward.
hahahaha
Naila asked me if i ever would do it again and i said i would never initiate but if he were to ask i would say yes just to see if my first hunch was true. Well, hopefully he figures it out that um he is just alot different than he is online. ALOT different. Also, I don't think we have people quite like that at GW. It is weird. But I need to go study and pack. TaTa
I'm guessing he says Nyet.
about the date...mr average well described it... not bad, not good, average.
I bet the guy was very nice but she's covering. Details to, unfortunately, follow.
im so nervous about meeting this dude
I cut out where the guy asked her out because it was said in a consise manner.
and i don't know why. hes nice, im nice, but 2 nice people, usually amount to friends.
In a rational universe, being friends wouldn't be a problem...
and i wouldn't complain, but sometimes being lonely sucks.
Enter this one.
i just want that person i can call anytime, that will cuddle when im feeling down, and i can be sure will see a movie with me that i have been dying to see. renting movies and going for walks...i kinda want someone for that purpose for the summer. i mean, he seems so nice. i don't know what will happen, but either way i have a new friend. would i want more? but of course! but, if it doesn't work, it doesn't work. i just hope that he doesn't think im ugly. thats my fear with guys. i mean my best friend who told me he liked me for 5 years dicked me over for asian sex.
You know, the ~2.5 billion people in the world.
whats a total stranger going to do? well, this guy seems caring and nice so atleast thats good. (i have a migraine so im typing with my eyes closed... i hope im hitting the right keys.)
Perhaps an icepick will help.
me and him... we have these amazing conversations. we have so much in common and think the same way about so many things on so many different levels. i just hope he finds that attractive and not friendly. that is definitely my problem with guys.
Aside from mild schizophrenia.
they always think im so funny, im so sweet, so honest, such a great advice-giver, such a great best friend.
Funny, I don't think that.
i hope i dont disappoint him with how i look. i haven't asked him what he looked like, and he hasn't asked me. im not ashamed of myself, i just don't want my size to turn him off before he meets me, because i am not a size 4, but my personality shrinks me, or so ive been told.
By who!?
plus, i mean there is more of me to love and i know what to do with my body. his friend thought i was cute, maybe he will too....
e.g. sex. Don't get confused by the coy language...
i wonder what we will do. i hope i have something to wear. i don't have any comfortable cute shoes. im gonna to have to wear flip flops. there is a pair i like at cole haan, or whatever that store is called. i think ill buy them. they are 75 dolars, but well worth it! they are blue and green. adorable! or maybe ill go to nordys and get a pink pair. in either case, i need something to wear. operation dress me will commence soon. when i figure out when and where. i need to look good. i don't have too many opportunities and this most definitely is one.
The unbearable lightness of being...
i wish i didn't have my thyroid problem. it controls my life in so many ways that i wish it didnt. but i have to work with the cards i have been dealt. i mean god made me this way for a reason, right? and if it isn't meant to be, it won't be. but what if nothing is meant to be? what if that is just something that hopeless romantics tell themselves to make themselves feel better? hrmf..
I do that to inject humor, not to be blasphemous.
u know, thinking about my new apartment, there are so many good things. maybe knowing this guy will allow me to meet more people from american.
Know <=> Screw
my apartment is at the dupont metro stop, only like 2 or so stops away from american. maybe i can hang out with kids from there. maybe i will like them better that the gw type.
American University. Average SAT: 1223. The reason I bring this up is it compares unfavorably to GWU (1240) which compares unfavorably to Georgetown (1375).
i know this apartment will give me the opportunity to meet many people i would never meet otherwise, as well as give me the opportunity to do things i wouldn't do otherwise. like, i always think in the future. i can see some type of relationship with someone from au very possible. i mean, its close, they can stay over whenever and take the metro back to school. i can go visit there. its almost easier that someone from gw. because when people are too accessible, its not good.
Contradictory?
i feel uber sick and initiation is tomorrow and i need to be there to pin kristine... that and if im not there, i have to pay 100 bucks which i don't have. but i have such a bad headache. im typing with my eyes closed right now. i have so much going on right now. im even sleeping on the couch bc its cooler out here and its not as stuffy. i feel shitty. im gonna end this. i hope all goes well with AU boy... but who knows. ill prolly mess it up like i mess up everything else. but atleast i will have made a new friend.
Reality keeps butting in.
okay i came to a realization
it sucks what bob did and yes im hurt but im not going to dwell
fuck him
also there are nice guys out there, i hope...
I do not make this up.
note to everyone:
i don't care if people know what i think. if i could tell everyone personally i would. if people care enough about me to read my journal, then the either already know how im feeling or would approach me about it. not leave an anonymous post.
Yes, you stupid fools - if you sabotage her posts, I will run out of a Gold Mine!
if you dont know or care about me, or if u dislike me, u must have no life and reading my live journal is the best thing that u could come up with...thats pathetic!
As George W Bush said in his TV AD: "Actually, alot of people do [know who I am]."
i would rather have people know how i think.
Thanks.
lately ive been poed about alot of things, and if i go with the COC its looked as being bad...
For $500...
K?
CORRECT!
so i just shut up and don't say anything, but this is my little piece of web to say whatever i want. and no one really reads it anyway.
Except the NID - Because We Care.
and if u do and im not friends with u, then ur retarded and need to get a life, unless u are truly interested. and in that case i feel bad for u and will be ur friend bc u obviously need one....
Ibid. with the reference to hating people.
okay thats all
Signing off...
i don't know why im posting this... i guess i just don't want to forget it because it sorta means alot
Not really.
Jmautner320 (12:48:49 AM): I can drive, die for my country, vote, on my 18th b day, but on my 21st, i can do some "socialy aceppted activity" which people use to escape their shitty lives
Incisive.
L a r e n a 7 (12:49:23 AM): no i just drink to think im hot for a few hours
L a r e n a 7 (12:49:31 AM): my life isn't shitty
Except that in your last post, you wanted to go under the knife.
Jmautner320 (12:50:09 AM): your esaping the shitty life of someone who lives in a world that makes her think that she isnt hot
Are you drunk?
Jmautner320 (12:50:23 AM): thats fucked up
Realistic
L a r e n a 7 (12:50:31 AM): jake do u think im hot?
whole lot of jakes philosophical stuff
Why was that redacted? We include the entirety of material here. It's only fair that the audience see the full nature of his opinion so that way an informed judgment can be reached. WHITEWASHING OF HISTORY: FAIR AND BALANCED.
Jmautner320 (12:57:04 AM): i think youa re
Big mistake.
i don't know why im posting this... i guess i just don't want to forget it because it sorta means alot
Not really.
Jmautner320 (12:48:49 AM): I can drive, die for my country, vote, on my 18th b day, but on my 21st, i can do some "socialy aceppted activity" which people use to escape their shitty lives
Incisive.
L a r e n a 7 (12:49:23 AM): no i just drink to think im hot for a few hours
L a r e n a 7 (12:49:31 AM): my life isn't shitty
Except that in your last post, you wanted to go under the knife.
Jmautner320 (12:50:09 AM): your esaping the shitty life of someone who lives in a world that makes her think that she isnt hot
Are you drunk?
Jmautner320 (12:50:23 AM): thats fucked up
Realistic
L a r e n a 7 (12:50:31 AM): jake do u think im hot?
whole lot of jakes philosophical stuff
Why was that redacted? We include the entirety of material here. It's only fair that the audience see the full nature of his opinion so that way an informed judgment can be reached. WHITEWASHING OF HISTORY: FAIR AND BALANCED.
Jmautner320 (12:57:04 AM): i think youa re
Big mistake.
jake and i are having this conversation and i hate how he reminds me of things i want to forget...
Khorosho! For this, you win the Order of Freedom!
like the fact that he was the first guy to ever tell me i was beautiful...
What was he hopped up on?
and the fact that i don't think anyone has told me that and meant it since. i mean Bolshoi told it to me but i just think he wanted the sex...
[1] Allegedly. [2] I lied. Yup. Just like Bush lied about the WMD in Iraq.
jake told it to me and really what he wanted was just well me...
Sure.
i hate thinking about this again. we aren't compatible anymore.
Sorry. Again, we is collective...
i wish we didnt fuck it up then. but whatever its now. no goin back in time.
We is collective...
im lonely and deprived...u know, sexually deprived... i haven't gotten any since the summer.
Charming.
i realized that i have no feelings what so ever for jake anymore, other than wanting him to be my friend.
And by friend, I meant I wanted his uhh...
i just want him to undo the lie he made to me... is that even possible? yeah i guess its possible to make it better but never to undo it.
That's very...Popperian.
i miss bolshoi's sex.
[1] Alleged. [2] Watch the spin.
it wasn't terrific but he was hot.
It was just the stretching of the insides...
i just miss having sex. im going thru an ugly phase. not to say that im ugly, but i feel ugly. And I was told numerous times this weekend by different guys that i had nice breasts... and numerous times this weekend to put them away from females. shouldn't i shake what my mommy gave me? Damn sometimes i wish my mommy was a plastic surgeon...
So do I...
People piss me off.
Ibid.
I wrote Bob a drunken email which I totally don't remember sending, but the 7th was the years anniversary of our destruction.
Our implies collective. Yours is the more appropriate phraseological construct.
We were honestly pretty close before then.
We implies collective. Honestly implies other things were lies to assuage her broken mind.
We could totally relate to eachother.
Except, you know, he diddled the Asian. Shoutouts to India, who just elected a new Prime Minister last week!
But whatever, im moving to DC and finding me some law interns from cali... oh those chipotle guys were hotties...
That is actually chilling.
Anyway, im going to keep talk to jakeums... i haven't called him that in a while and it seems funny now that i ever did. its sorta redic... well later
Indeed. Very ridiculous.
sometimes i feel like i made a huge mistake joining the sorority.
It's not as bad as invading Finland...
i have met some great girls, yes, but it has kept me from doing alot of things i should have.
Such as moving towards a 5 Year Plan?
Also, it is way too much added stress. After being in an organization that taught us how to lead for 4 years, coming and seeing the leadership abilities of people that didn't have that oportunity shows me how lucky i really am.
See my previous post on the Deer Leader.
i am amazed to see how many people that i know have no clue what tact is,
Chyort!
and they don't even come close to having it. And that isn't just the sorority--it is everyone here!
To trenchantly quote Bill Wittle: "Does anyone beside me detect a pattern here? You know, my Dad told me once, "Bill, if more than three people in your life are utter, total assholes, then maybe it's you."
Sometimes I think why am i torturing myself staying here, but I know it will be a huge mistake to go home, but sometimes, that is all i want.
Considering your majors and competencies, you have no chance of getting into the Crown of New Jersey's Academic Institutions so going home will kibosh your professional future.
to be at home with the people that really care about me, mainly my mom and dad.
Just sounding out an idea...uhh, shouldn't you break away from your parents and forge your own life in college?
i miss them so much. i mean, I don't exactly miss my friends from high school because I have most definitely grown out of them.
They were purged.
I am on a whole different level and I can't put up with that catty shit.
A transcendental level. I am above these untermenschen...
Speaking of catty shit, I don't know why I joined the sorority sometimes, because people ARE catty.
[1] Women. [2] Deal with it.
That is why all my friends from home were guys.
That or you liked the cock.
I just feel like I don't fit in here anymore. I am losing my mind--no, im not going crazy, i mean my intellect.
We almost had a breakthrough...
i used to be so bright and after that incident senior year, i felt like i lost whatever gift i had.
Do tell.
I got into NYU 7 year and i chose here.
Mierda.
why? why am i here? why did i join this sorority?
Public drinking makes you seem like less of an alcoholic?
I feel like there are some girls in it that are truly my friends, but then there are others that, if i was to disiffiliate, would never speak to me again because wearing letters is the only bond we actually have.
I'm not in a Fraternity, but I'd imagine backstabbing your allies would be costly.
im sick of being backstabbed, i am sick of people being 2-faced, i am sick of hearing that my best friends here say shit about me.
I offer discount political consulting services...we'll do a little push polling, maybe screen Mean Girls and bond...
that SHOULDNT happen, but it does. I don't get people. Maybe I am too mature for my age.
Or maybe your delusions of supremacy are getting in the way of understanding the vox populi...
There are 2 people that i truly get along with - amanda g and my mom.
You mentioned your dad earlier. Watch your step, that's consistency!
What do they have in common? They are both like twice my age or more.
Bolshoi sympathizes. He had a close Party ally in a friend who was thrice his age. As time elapsed, so did that alliance -- it is imperative to be rooted in your peers and constitutents and she is not understanding the fundamental roots of politics.
I don't know. I can't wait to go home, but other than for my parents, i don't want to be there. and then here? i don't want to be here.
There are ways to end this problem.
Sometimes I wish that my parents would move to another country so I could start new or atleast that I could go back to highschool and live it all differently.
I hear Venezuela is nice this time of year...
Maybe I would still be at GW but I would have chosen a different route.
Towards Moscow instead of Astrakhan!
I would never have fell in love with jake, i would have never messed things up with bob. I would never have gone to mast to tell u the truth - i would have gone to ranney or peddie -- i would do it all different if i could, because i definitely think that i made some wrong decisions somewhere down the line.
Navel gazing is pointless.
im so happy that i am moving into an offcampus apartment. something small but something nice and as far away from gw as possible. i want school to be my only commitment,
As we shall see, that is not what she wants.
but i don't want to have to give up the girls that i do love.
Cf. with her previous remarks about "cattiness"
i just feel like i don't have enough time to do everything that is expected of me. If it wasn't for Dan B, I think I wouldn't be at this school this semester.
Lavrenti, the icepick!
Of all people at GW, I love him the most. He is the best person that I have ever known -- I wish one day to be as great as he is now.
Something about leaders and laggards...
Im thinking about disaffiliating -- not because i don't like the sorority, but because i don't have the time.
Success!
I don't think that it is necessary.
Tell all my friends I'm dead...
I mean, I have my friends now and I really just joined it to meet people.
Super.
I just don't know if I could give it up because it is the first thing i have actually really felt like i belonged to, even though i have doubts - alot of them. I am thinking about writing a letter to our president telling her that i need to talk to her because all this shit that is going on this semester is too much -- im sorry but we can't ALL do EVERYTHING!
Con Juan Kerry, Nosotros Ganamos...
I am premed and a chemistry major -- the most difficult major here!
Point: Isn't that two majors?
I can't always be there. I can't always do everything. I need to miss a meeting to study and talk to my realtor about last minute apartment things and its a big deal -- im sorry that i didn't come to the stupid meeting!
Thatcher...you knew the risks when you signed up...Falklands war...
i am working with my parents and my realtor on a 400K apartment contract -- is the fuckin meeting really more important? I
I'd leave that to someone with a JD...
m sorry i don't have time to correctly read all 20 phi sig emails that i get EVERYDAY! This is fuckin rediculous.
20 letters, 1 page each...1 minute per page...questions?
The sorority comes after schoolwork to me. Hell, it even comes after school-related extracuriculars. Like if I had an amsa event, I would go to it before a phi sig one because AMSA is for networking.
i.e. acquanting myself with the cock.
i just don't understand this anymore. i am having such a friggin hard time dealing with all this shit. all i want to do is get good grades --is that too much to ask?
Not really...
Magna Cum Laude
i don't want to deal with all this catty bullshit. i don't want people to expect perfection from me ~ im not perfect! i can't deal with this anymore. bleh...
Chyort!
wanna know what i did on valentines day?
No.
i went to pentagon city with the madre
That's sad.
and while in crate and barrel, met the couple from the dc episode of perfect proposal.
WTF?
i so went up to them and told them congrats and how happy i am for them and all that jazz.
Stalker?
they are seriously the sweetest people EVER! it makes me sick, in a good way. they were doing their registry on v-day. sweet.
See previous remarks.
i couldn't help but think damn hes hot. but atleast i didn't verbalize it.
Word vomit.
they told me i was the first person to ever recognize them from teh show. yes, that did show how much of a tlc junkie i am, but, the show was memorable, okay?
Past tense of is...as in, off the air. Judging by the lack of recognition, off the air for a long, long time.
my hairstylist was on it, as was hova!
Super.
then we walked around the city and found some good apartment buildings that i may want to live in... then we went to a really really expensive bar/restaurant where i got served 15 dollar glasses of wine. anyway, it was a happy v-day.
Reference her previous comments about drinking "responsibly"
and someone from the boston area told me they were sending me flowers next week :-*
Senator Kerry, we have a winner.
so for all those who got flowers on v-day, u are so dull. im getting them just because. if he remembers.
I don't know whether to laugh or Chyort!
yeah so i told him he could come visit me this summer.
I will publish the Dialogues later.
hopefully it doesn't get too serious though. i don't wanna fall for another seasonal bostonian to have them leave again...
Let the Rancor begin!
hey, atleast this one is a yankees fan.
Pragmatically speaking, Boston is worth a mass.
and he goes to harvard law which is way better than Rodina State.
Perhaps because Rodina State has no law school arm? We are, however, a better school academically than GWU...
so hrm... whatever... i gotta get to bed... now if only grace would stop being loud and naked in the room....
Charming.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
valentines day is a day for the thoughtless losers to have an occasion to be all sappy and hallmark card romantic...
What does she say about those who plan ahead?
aka it gives them a time to do what their girlfriends wish they would do all the time.
Soothe me with your feminine wiles.
there is no reason for being jealous of the couples because the really romantic guys are in tonight and out doing this stuff every other weekend. okay that is all.
As could be pointed to by your boyfriend. Oho!
meanwhile, i might go into boston over our break to see some friends, including rob. don't ask me why. he invited me. should i go?
NO!
Im about to cry. I jsut wrote this whole long post and I got a pop up and it erased.
Shit happens. Move to w.bloggar.
the gist was that people here are immature.
This coming from Wonkette's doppleganger.
I haven't heard the fat insult since gradeschool, then I come here and it resurfaces. I came to an institution of higher learning and im surrounded by people of lower intelligence.
It's not an insult, it's an observation rooted in the objective praxeology of the situation. Besides, who are you to determine people's intelligence?
and because i actually am at college to study and go somewhere in life, that doesn't make me an 'old fart' or boring. And the fact that i drink responsibly doesn't make me uncool.
That somewhere.
on another note: people suck.
I don't! Vote for me!
that is all.
Bitch stole my tagline!
so im guessing Bolshoi reads my live journal because his attempt at a responsive away message to my last post is sort of funny.
It was remarked today to Bolshoi how calm he is. However, unbridled attacks on my sovereignty shall not sit idly by without some form of disproportionate retaliation.
She is referring to the Speech before Parliament House on 10 February 2004. Excerpts from the archives:
In her delusional and addled mind, she represented the sine qua non of what a lover could and should be. Ignoring her plethora of physical deviations from the ideal woman, her hair was raven-black, like sack-cloth and of similar quality, she was God-awfully obese, butt-ugly, reeked of the worst perfume ever in terms of cheapness and quality control issues, was physically repulsive, failed to…
I am being informed by the Speaker that I am digressing from the point…
The revisionism of hate has consumed her life. She will try to airbrush previous comments out of history under the weight of a new legacy - that we are responsible for her failure. Her star has set, and with it, her influence over events.
I don't wear cheap perfume (only burberry, dolce & gabbana, and chanel for me),
And I am the Queen of England...
and my hair is most definitely not raven black and it is incredibly silky, shiny, and healthy,
Excerpted from her personal statements: 020. colored hair : eh It appears I captured the wrong Flavor of the Week...
and im not obese. I will call myself fat, chubby, rather large, bigger than i want to be, ect., but I am not what he described (I shouldn't have to go on the JAP starbucks and laxatives diet to look like something that god didn't intend me to be)...
Whatever floats your boat...
but it doesn't matter..
No, we are above this petty nonsense...
.im whatever he wants/wanted me to be because he gets what HE wants all the time, so I guess at one point HE WANTED ME.
I want World Peace (TM). Does that mean the Palestinians will walk into the sea by themselves?
HE drove almost an hour to come to my house to see ME
Her exit is 2 from my beach house.
when I stopped dating other people, and aparently he did too,
Good thing you didn't tell her about Stacy, Comrade Nikolai!
for me. Whatever!
Like, Oh My God!
I am what I am and not what Bolshoi wanted/wants me to be.
The Brezhnev Question.
At one point he used to drive an hour
I drove an hour to go to my house. You, incidentally, were along the side of the road. Get the analogy?
just to come see me so I guess he liked me this summer. Now am I a bad memory? Who knows.
Let me answer that for you: YES.
All I know is that you don't want to date a stuffy capitalist...EVER!
< When I run out of material, I will post how I made her cry as a Communist.
I don't care how good-looking you deem them to be.
See previous post.
They are not the best people.
We know you can tell who the best people are...
(this was in his profile: Someone just walked in my room, asking for a box cutter. I asked: "Do we look Saudi?")
Chyort!
Especially Bolshoi, who I actually was able to find out alot about after we broke up.
Starting with the location of the Secret Tunnel...
Apparently he was a big dork in high school
Big dork => Higher GPA and better undergrad school than her. Pay no mind to the rabble.
who is now trying to change his image in college,
Yes, as mentioned earlier Bolshoi is a Capitalist.
but is having a little bit of trouble doing it at his own school
Rodina State is too small. I use Rodina State to, oh, I don't know, study. Whereas she just gets shitfaced.
so spends alot of time at others in the area.
Maximizing the win scenario.
He tries to forget his high school past
Nonsense. I used my highschool to secure my undergraduate career. That will secure Law/Business and, then, Morgan die Ganz Welt.
and of anything taht reminds him of how he was in high school.
Spellcheck. But, seriously I enjoyed high school but there is no point to it.
YES, WHEN I MET HIM HE WAS WEARING NEON YELLOW AND BLACK PLEATHER NIKES.
Notice: She remembers what I wore, but I have no recollection of what she wore. Yellow effectuates a goal of making things brighter, which is seemingly obvious but, in actuality, very difficult to understand.
I looked past them, for a first time ever (usually dress is important to me because it tells you alot about a person's character). I should have taken the hint then.
If only Archduke Ferdinand survived...
This guy has no clue who he is,
Ironic that I have a perfect clue on who I am - that you never understood because it was so blatantly obvious.
no clue who he wants to be.
Graduation from BSU: '06. JD/MBA '10. Career in HR Consulting for 15-20 years. LL.M. '15. Officeholder, culminating in Senate.
He didn't fit in with the punk crowd (he had a bunch of what i call 8th grade punk in his car),
Blink 182 CDs. 2 of them.
and he didn't fit in with the hip hop group.
??????
He's in boston now, so he prolly turned into a DMB groupie, just like the rest of the massholes.
No, but I give them alot more patience than I would have had you not made this statement.
i told rob (not bob just for u that don't know that there was a rob in the picture way before there was ever a bob)that i wouldn't want to see him again; i guess i should have changed my screenname since grade/high school so i don't get any more weird ims.
Effortless transitions.
i haven't even thought about this guy since atleast junior year of high school. I almost forgot he existed. He was a great guy, but I guess there is just too much time in between. Let me just say that he is at HARVARD LAW!
Ibid. for that Queen of England reference.
yes, I had no clue since I haven't talked to him since he went off to Duke a while back. It sort of makes me want to reconsider. But I won't. Past is past. But when he comes down to DC after law school (yes, you have heard this right. He wants to live in DC!) I might think it over.
Mull your options.
However, I barely remember what he looks like... and only remember him from his senior year of high school. IT sort of makes me wonder what he is like now. Not saying it will ever work out, but it could. Rob was once kinda important if you know what i mean, and u can never EVER get over anyone that u have that sort of bond with...
EVER!!!
Also, I find out in a few short hours whether my parents won the bid on the apartment that i am in love with. This really made me realize how much my parents love me.
So money is the root of all happiness. Who is the better capitalist? If I may reference my own post, you can see her comments on being a JAP and her subsequent posts on the pretentious nature of JAPs. Personally, having gone to school with girls being accused of them I don't mind. Indeed, I found them perfectly charming and pleasant. In this case, however, she is being a hypocrite.
They really don't have the money for this, but they know that I cant live in campus housing anymore. Im sorry, but I am just too mature for the dormitory bullshit.
I don't make this up.
So they are buying me a 1 bedroom apartment and they trust me...ALOT! They are willing to buy this place and they have never seen it, only the few pictures I took inside. They have taken my word for a very very very very expensive investment.
At the peak of the Housing market.
It still sort of amazes me when I think about it. My senior year of high school, my mom didn't trust me with my car keys on days I was home from school because she thought that I would go out or go see Jake, and now she trusts me with ALOT of her money. And she pays full tuition for this school minus my scholarship. Which is alot of money. I guess my parents have faith in me. I have faith in me too.
I don't, but, mercifully, I am far away from the meltdown.
My orgo test went really well yesterday. Thanks so much to Dan who explained something to me that I should have learned last semester, but just sort of neglected it...
Also, I am so super-excited. We have 16 new members of Phi Sig! I could have never imagined that recruitment would go so well. These are all GREAT girls!
So the question is why have I been up since 7 in the morning. The answer is I went to bed at like 11 and Grace's phone woke me up, and now I am too awake and not tired enough to fall back to sleep. I guess I will prepare for my Crim Law class tonight and my Quantitative Analysis test which is tomorrow afternoon.
All in all, I am excited/nervous ~ wish me luck!
Nyet, tovarisch.
i was just thinking about second order electophillic substitution
I was thinking why does Blogger not have spell check?
and about how Bolshoi was a computer hacker for a big company which is totally illegal.
You would think that the Federales would be more upset with electoral fraud. I digress, she is a blinkered idiot as will soon be made manifestly apparent.
he used to always want to go down to the beach to burn like what he would say were hacker's guides and printouts of stuff.
I wanted to go down to the beach to go out, away from you. There is a substantive difference - (see Monsieur Sharps).
it makes me wonder how much of a law-abiding citezen he actually is.
One who uses spell check. Seriously, what type of whacked out person thinks about that sorta thing?
i also heard that he was seen with a girl and 'she looked like she was backed over with a truck after she fell out of the hi-im-an-ugly-slutty-bimbo tree.'
That wasn't nice. Alas, who did you hear from?
whatever. i guess he wanted to make sure he was with someone with less experience with him, because, boy can i tell you, his experience was minimal.
See previous post. At this juncture there are two possible solutions: [a] She is delusional or [b] She is telling the unvarnished, yet constantly changing truth. Perhaps she is illustrating the Heisenburg Uncertainty Principle.
and picking someone out of that tree usually isn't the way to do it,
Phallocentric (Adj.) - Anything taller than it is wide.
but apparently, she wasn't a real slut, just a blowjob slut, which is the worst kind. lol
isn't it a little messed up for me to have an away message up saying 'will u be my v-a-l-e-n-t-i-n-e if u will u'll surely know how happy i will be...'which was intended for someone who didn't even come online
Hearsay, meet Conjecture. Hearsay, Conjecture.
while it was up, and then get a message from my ex bf saying come to jersey next weekend and u can be my valentine but just don't tell anyone especially my girlfriend...?
What type of fool would volunteer himself for that type of torture?
i was like...shouldn't u be staying in mass to spend v-day with ur gf?
Cambridge for me, but Hades for Thee...
whatever dude. im having a visitor for v-day. so what if it happens to be my mom who is coming to help me look for an apartment and close on one... plus, she gives me better presents. :-P
That is a chilling prospect.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
i don't think i have ever been this happy with just me and who i am.
I feel pretty...oh so pretty...
i don't know. like i feel like i am finally on the path that i need to be.
The, uh, let's call it the Shining Path...
i know what i want to do. i have been able to see thru immature boys bullshit.
Khorosho!
i have even started to be attracted to older guys... like 25 or so. i mean, they aren't immature.
The old-guard boys or the new ones?
take Bolshoi, for example. he was my age, but didn't have the college experience under his belt.
Oh, and it's worth having. College, at least at the undergraduate level, is high-school in its insular political configurations and laced with easier access to alcohol.
This is obviously a great slight, in her eyes, towards me despite the fact that I have superior academic credentials and am set to graduate a year early...coincidentally putting me on the same path of graduation as she is currently on.
now he is with this chick,
The chick's name is Katelyn, you filthy whore.
may have been the ex that wanted to get back with him,
Nyet. Wrong guess.
who knows, and getting what he thinks is the only thing that a girl can give him, sex.
There. We said it. Although it is wrong, we do not allow the truth to stand in the way of an emotional argument.
that was seriously his outlook.
Like, OMG! Who would have ever thought of someone exhibiting their rational self interest...
he won't do anything that won't benefit him in some way.
Ibid.
he even said that he thought love was crap
At least, loving you...
and he would only marry for someone that would support him and fit his guidelines.
I can't think of a counter-example. Even prearranged marriages fit the criterion of marriages formed that fit the guidelines imposed by culture or religion. This is, therefore, a valid statement...
then he would smooth talk her into staying.
I did not say that.
well that was just the latest beau.
Super.
i mean, he was hot.
Whitewash. Two coats.
i told him that often,
Bolshoi never hears that enough -- that he is dead seksay...
but other than that, he really doesn't have much on the personality side going for him.
I'm easily amused...
he isn't a bad friend to joke around with,
Ibid.
but a bad boyfriend, yes.
Very bad.
then there was bob.
Oh yes. Go there!
we won't even go there.
Why not?
i am so out of his league that it isn't even funny.
I'm laughing, but perhaps Nash equilibrium isn't all it's cracked up to be. After all, Bob has a girlfriend and you have your cell phone set to the vibrate feature.
i am like neiman marcus and he is jc penny.
Spell Check, Aisle 1...
there is no comparison. well, maybe i should say that i am a mercedes and he is a dae woo.
The utilitarian argument would advance the conjecture that both get you to the same place. And the Daewoo has superior MPG...
maybe that is more appropriate. Then there is jake. great guy, but needs to make himself happy.
I suggest LSD.
doesn't quite know how to do that.
Oh, but make no mistake, she will make you happy...
He thinks that by him making other people happy that it would make him happy, and that is complete bullshit.
Write that down, liberals and people who aspire to help others...
Jake and I are different. I am neiman and he is like j crew.
Notice this constant need to compare against others? Tangentially, why didn't I get a shopping goods chain compared to me? How about Royal Ahold N.V. or something like that.
The comparison would then be...apples...to oranges! Ah, Bolshoi makes a funny! Haha!
He is smaller and not quite there, but not shabby by any means.
Smaller. Poor guy.
I mean, okay, maybe using stores makes me sound stuck up,
I'd stick with delusional, considering your previously stated dislike for the retail sector...
but I think that it is a good way to categorize.
Apples to oranges! Is good joke! Laugh!
I realized that I have surpassed the guys and the boys and I am onto the men.
Ah yes, old rhetorical trick Bolshoi uses on people in rocky/unstable relationships. Just as good as George saying "You can do better..."
Jake and Bolshoi were guys, Bob was a boy.
So is Bolshoi a man or not? Time will tell!
And going back way before that is a little hazy. I mean I remember certain bfs, but not too well.
Not the ones who penetrate me...Upcoming story pending.
Plus, um there is no use of thinking about people that far in the past. I am just totally past boys. I mean, I am in a new place is my life. I am able to take care of myself. I am able to do alot of things that I have been able to do. I consider myself alot more mature than alot of people my age.
Yes. Do you see my unhealthy fixations? Every one is an example of maturity! Count them!
I mean, Amanda G is like 15 years older than I am and we get along perfectly. I mean, I even can relate to her stories more so than my other friends from back home.
Maybe Amanda G is immature. I can't tell...
I mean Jess is getting married at the age of 20 to a man with a child. I can't fathom that quite yet.
Relates back to my previous Republican comments...
I mean, I can't ever relate to dropping out of school and marrying a guy. Not to say that it was bad,
And indeed, the only thing holding you from that fate when you were 12 was a small degree of structural engineering and a large degree of Divine Providence....
but I was always brought up to be able to support myself first, before a man comes into the picture. I don't know. I just relate to older people better than people my age.
See future post on how she got farked when she was 12.
However, lately I have been reminded of just how much I love my sisters. There are so many that I love to pieces. Like, firstly, Amanda. She is like my favorite person ever and my indiana counterpart.
Christ. Lavrenti, put this one in the box!
Grace is hysterical. I love Meg! She is here so often. Like last night, she slept in Amanda's bed, while Amanda slept on the couch.
Notice the lack of men. Any takers as to why?
I dunno I just love Meg M. She is a Sox fan, but I can only hold that against her during baseball season. Then Becka is by far the best big ever, and michelle is a rockin little. I love Julia too! Beck's roommate! And her non-phi sig roommate dana ~ fun girls. Great. Then there are steph and lauren and shari, all super amazing girls. Shari is like my idol. i need to get some tips from her... Then there is Ash who is seeing the really hot bball player. She is the funniest republican I know.
If it seems like unceasing babble is rooted in the principle that her ostensible maturity is degraded by her high-school penchants, you win a prize...
We definitely used to make up dirty spanish stories last spring when we had maite's class together. Then, another phisig who I had spanish with, Jo. She is great. I should talk to her more often ~ she's great. Then I totally miss Julia, who is in Africa somewhere or something and then Linds who I miss. She graduated last year :(. Then, I mean there are all these other girls that are just amazing ~ all of my sisters are truly amazing. There aren't enough good things I can say. I mean, I am not super close with all of them, but that doesn't make them anything less than fabulous.
Great.
The people from Hova 7 last year... I don't really talk to any of them. I don't know; they just weren't my type of people.
They were...untermenschen...
First, there was the whole Bill-Jeff-Lindsey thing plus or minus andrew and stacey at oppotune times. Then it turned to bill and stacey and lindsey and andrew. Then that just sorta stopped I guess. Well, no, bill and stacey are still attatched at the hip, or so I hear. I never got that.
Fascinating. A love pentagram, give or take a few spokes. (Wait, where's the missing spoke - obviously Lauren was involved if she is mentioning it...)...
Actually, I never got any of that. The only thing that those people have in common is alcohol and marijuana.
George Washington University...
A place of higher learning...
Not to say that they aren't great people, minus lindsey who i think would sell out the pope for her own personal gain,
Ah, a strident secularist...
but I just never got it. And I didn't fit there, and I didn't really want to fit in there. They are just, well, different.
What did Primo Levi say about strangers in Survival at Auschwitz? Once the premise is accepted that the stranger is the enemy, that syllogism leads to the lager? Questions anyone?
I hear that Andrew is branching out. And Jeff joined a frat last year. I actually recommended him for it because he was the type of guy they were looking for. I just don't quite understand the clique, I guess. Well, then again, I have never understood cliques, nor have I ever felt the need to be in one.
Of course not. Phi Sigma Sigma...
I rather have numerous friends.
Let that sink in, right around your ankles...
you're that deep in shit...
I mean, Stacey is great. She was really nice. Sometimes, she did some weird shit, but whatever, we all do. I will never understand it and it isn't my place to. I miss talking to her. We defintely had the jersey thing in common.
Which is, to say, that people living in Chatham are along the same social construction as those in Newark...
and we hung out alot at the beginning of last summer. Andrew is a nice guy. I never really had a problem with him. I am not sure how mutual that was but whatever. Jeff was one of those guys who never took responsibility for anything.
Oh Ethyl, my pills!
I mean, I guess that is why everyone like him.
Except me...
I never really had a problem with him, other than that he wrote on my letters.
What?
For a person saying that money shouldn't buy your friends, he sure fits into the whole fraternity scene quite well.
Non-sequitur...
Will was my favorite of the group though. I understood him, I think. I mean, I think we had the most in common. I am not sure why though. I guess we had both gone thru our hard times and they had been legit.
Hard times?
Too legit to quit?
I guess will and I just sorta had a heart to heart in NC, where he made me sleep on the nasty ass floor, and it was kinda like an unspoken understanding.
Drunken rampage...
Just because you aren't close friends on the exterior, doesn't mean that you aren't close.
Penis-goes-in-here close...
I mean, we were then, but I don't think that I have spoken to him since this summer, other than a few times I have seen him around campus, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss him. He is a great guy. Sometimes he just needs to be reminded of it. Well, then again, we all do.
Except Bolshoi, who has Ministry of Truth proclaiming his glories on daily basis...
Then there are other people from HOVA.
What's the nick for Georgetown? Hoya? Yes, well, there is no envy...hoya...saxa...hoya...saxa...
Elisa was one of my closest friends on the floor. She is really great. I kinda miss hanging out with her, but I don't have much time to hang out anymore. The same with renee. I miss hanging out with her. It sucks that she lives across campus. I don't talk to her too often, but I wish I could hang out with her more. Also, I miss Jess too. And michelle and Cheryl. Michelle and I hung out alot last summer. She lives so so so close. She is abroad this summer and I really miss her. She is so funny. And I have never seen anyone have weirder cravings than her! Cheryl moved in with some phi sigs. She is great. And she hangs out alot now with Elisa and Ryan, the frosh that lives in my old room. He is funny as hell. We went to his shore house this past summer... that was interesting. I miss some people from HOVA.
Was that boring for you? Good. We'll continue...Notice the sex of most entries.
I miss Kajal too. I don't really miss anoma since she is here all the time. I don't have alot of time to hang out with people anymore, considering what my major is and the classes that I am taking. However, that doesn't mean that I am not thinking about them and/or miss them.
I don't know where that just came from.
And I love Dan! He is the bestest!
Indeed, apparently he knows where the bodies are buried. Am I concerned? Not particularly, no.
Okay, I forget where this was going.
That makes two of us...
And I hear that Elisa had me beat for controversial journal.
There is no controversy at the Whitewashing of History...
I don't think I talked shit about anyone really important, so sorry. Okay that is all.
Mierda.
Comrade Nikolai, beatings are in order for her right-deviationism!
Municipal Chairman, Democratic Party
of the Borough of Manasquan
&
Community Facilitator,
The George Washinton University
The lack of a g will mean that this poor man will now meet Allah...
it is in this guy's profile who i went to high school with and it had been since the beginning of last semester. does anyone see anything wrong with it?
He is left-deviationist?
First of all, he is a democrat.
Oh, heavens to betsy, so are half the American people!
But check out where he goes to school. LoL it gets me every time.
HA! HA!
Yes, GW is a place of higher learning, but no, you do not have to know how to spell it correctly to attend.
And by higher learning, we mean that's far out, man...
Well, I started writing a journal but I clicked a link and of course it opened in this window and I lost what I was writing so I guess that means that I have to start again.
Damn computers.
I don't understand why this girl who I have never met is reading my live journal and my away messages.
Posthumous Order of the Red Banner of Labor...
Jake says she is a bitch who likes to start shit.
It couldn't be Jake is lying to you, no, Sire.
Lavrenti: Yes, we have Jake and Jake's girlfriend on watch.
He also says she doesn't know him anymore and that he barely talks to her.
It is a fallacy to assume that the secular Baathists and al-Qaida could cooperate...
I mean, she is giving Jake a bad time about so much shit. Well, she might be telling Carissa about it which in return is giving Jake a bad time and all that Jazz. I mean, jake is going thru a transition period in his life.
Transition. From L Paul Bremer III to Provisional Governing Council. Dah!
He needs time to do his college applications and get ready emotionally to move. He doesn't need this girl starting things for him. I guess she doesn't understand that. But, I guess that is what you get when your girlfriend is supposedly best friends with someone like that.
She's the best friend; the girlfriend is the girlfriend.
Want to bet on who wins this battle?
I mean, what is the point? I don't understand how every time I hang out with Jake, something comes back to me.
Dress stains.
Nausea
I quoted something funny that he said jokingly and carissa finds out and gets mad because she wasn't supposed to know that we hung out. Now this. I don't get it. I mean my live journal is for me to post my thoughts right?
Or for mockery and public criticism.
Comrade Nicholai suddenly understands what this is for.
I give facts and then post my opinions. What is so controversial about that?
Faux News: Fair and Unbalanced.
Fairly Unbalanced
Jake is now thinks that I am overjudgemental.
No e in judgmental...
Jake is now thinks indeed!
Well, yeah, if you read someone's thoughts, you are going to think that they are judgemental. Everyone thinks it, no one says it. I just choose to write it down. Isn't he being judgemental by saying I'm judgemental and by saying this, aren't I just the same. It is a paradox.
I would posit that it is calling a spade a spade...
No paradox, lets look at how judgemental you can be... elitist swine!
Everyone judges everyone else. I just wish Jake got more support from people back at home.
Watch the hands as statist controls are imposed, squelching individual initative...
I mean, maybe he isn't surrounding himself with the right people.
Borgousie pig being prime example
You are who you associate with and if you associate with people who never plan on doing anything more than going for 2 years to a community college to work in retail the rest of their life, maybe that is how he will turn out. I highly doubt that though. Jake is so much better than he lets off. I mean, he is better than the people he
associates with.
ditto
He is better than 99% of the people at Brookdale.
We use statistical modeling to come up with the figure of 99%. No questions will be tolerated...
When the workers rise up, the top 1% will be destroyed!
He has a talent and he is passionate about that. I would say pretty much no one at community college is overly passionate about anything.
Crack.
Borgousie pigs are not elitist... of course not...
The number of people that go on to 4 year schools from ccs is dwindling.
I would beg to differ, and so would even the most cursory glance of news reports on the subject...
And the number of people that want to be there is very limited.
Like the Gulag
I cant wait to see how Jake grows when he finally surrounds himself with people of his caliber. Money doesn't buy class.
I defer to the Commissar to debunk this one.
Money doesn't buy class? You being the perfect example sugarplum.
Jake has the potential to be a classy guy. He just needs a little help.
And of course, her spies are ready to give such an effort to overthrow the last footings he has of independence...
I mean, he knows he is very laid back now. He has the right personality. We just need to give him the confidence and the look.
Did you notice the we? Interesting how the tense dropped from first person to n-th person. What did that mean?
That is done how? By surrounding him with people of his own caliber.
If you assumed she's talking about racial and economic segregation, you win a cookie.
She is! She once told me that rich people deserve the best education. Comrade Nicholai has another kind of caliber he would like to introduce her too.
Have you seen some of the people at brookdale? They are scary.
We must kill those who are scary...
You don't find many people like that at the schools he wants to go to. He will gain so much confidence and grow so much when he goes to school. I can't wait to see what happens.
She's big on this personal growth thing. Sorta like Bolshoi with Paradigm.
Okay enough about Jake, great guy, but it is kinda hurting me to type. I made dinner tonight, ham and green bean casserole. Everyone loved it. Well, atleast me and Amanda, the only people that ate it.
Dear God...
But me, being me, burnt my hand on the oven. Now I have this white blistery hard mark on my hand. It is getting better though, not a biggie. Amanda and I then proceeded to watch goldmemeber.
Rememeber that one, kids.
Great movie. Brought back memories. And it was weird, because with all that has been going on with jake, the movie reminded me of him. We were supposed to go see it together, but it was out the summer of 2002 and he had just started going out with that girl. She wants to see it and BAM I get ditched.
Whoops! Wrong side of history, are we?
Whatever. I don't blame him.
Blame those at Brookdale...
I would rather go with someone who would give me nookie afterwards. However, I would tell the other person first. And if he really wanted nookie so bad... lol j.k.
What?
But when we did hang out, he just talked alot about the movies. Everything from I'm from holand isn't that weird to ishkabibble to moley moley moley moley to coughing with my fuzzy dice.
Someone has watched the movie...AND IT'S HOLLAND, DAMMIT!
I dunno. We can have so much fun together sometimes. If he didn't tell her some of the things he did, if she didn't judge me,
If the Franco-British were persuaded to give up their guarantees to the Czechoslovaks...
if her friend didn't make up lies about me, things between jake and I would be different that they are now.
Jake would know all the words to theHorst Wessel song...
But I sort of like it like it is now. Friends. It is hard to be friends sometimes when there is someone trying to prevent it, but whatever. We can deal.
The kolkhozy will out-produce the Kulaks...
Comrade Nicholai will survive...
Bah! how did I get back here again? well, I guess it was just what I had on my mind. I needed to get it out. There is alot that I have been thinking about lately. I just know I don't have time to post much. I have so much work to do this weekend. I don't think I will be going out at all. I have like a bazillion pages of reading and alot of chem problems to do. All in all, a damper to my social life. Okay, I need to get some sleep. I am mighty tired. Til next time. Ciao.
Dasvedenya...
Test.
Test in red! Dah!
Glorious news, Commissar Nikolai. We can now edit each other's remarks. What we do is that we type < font color = "[NAME OF COLOR]" > TEXT < / FONT > without spaces.
The Revolution advances.
Monday, April 12, 2004
L a r e n a 7: you know, if Bolshoi is going to put something i say in his away message calling me the delusional stalker, he could atleast have the balls to paste it all
Bolshoi had the balls to renounce all worldly possessions! Weak bourgousie shall not question his committment to the motherland!
Comrade Nicholai: i dont think i would want to see it all
L a r e n a 7: it just said anyone that would go down on Bolshoi
L a r e n a 7: it wasnt even bad
Notice how quickly the capitalists lose their moral fiber, simply saddening
Comrade Nicholai: still dont necessarily need to hear that
L a r e n a 7: heh sorry
Comrade Nicholai: you could just stop checking his away messages
Comrade Nicholai is obviously joking. Weak capitalists do not have the willpower to simply give up their weaknesses.
L a r e n a 7: um... why though?
Comrade Nicholai is told that first step is admitting that you have problem
L a r e n a 7: i mean, whats the harm in checkin them? i got his away message
Comrade Nicholai: because this is an unhealthy obsession
L a r e n a 7: so that means im on his buddylist
Whatever the pig needs to tell herself
L a r e n a 7: to tell u the truth, it was the first time i had read it in a while
L a r e n a 7: its not on my larena7 bl anymore...until today actually
Then it truly is a glorious day for the Motherland!
We're not so lucky, brigand.
Comrade Nicholai: and now you're im-ing me because you're so concerned...
L a r e n a 7: no im iming you because of the irony.
I hate to beat my paradigm horse, but does she know what irony is?
Comrade Nicholai: im not sure this is an ironic situation
L a r e n a 7: the fact he has the balls to put my sn in his away message, but not everything i said.
L a r e n a 7: its ironic
Comrade Nicholai: the fact that you still check his away messages and come running to me, its sad
Sad like Stalingrad for you weak mongrels!
Mr. Hilter is still upset about that, Comrade.
Comrade Nicholai: you should move on
L a r e n a 7: im not running to u, im laughing
Next thing you tell Comrade Nicholai is that Berlin Wall collapse!
Nonsense! The West Germans collapsed in their own filth and decadence. KGB operative is Foreign Minister and Chancellor, what more could we want?
L a r e n a 7: oh i have moved on. but i found a conversation that we had that he cant deny we were never um 'together'
Is that WMD in a cave, Comrade?!
Comrade Nicholai: yeah, i'm sure there was a deep emotional commitment
L a r e n a 7: um the quotes were supposed to hint at that um...together meant something completely different
It means buggery...
Comrade Nicholai: it will be much better for you if you just let go
of all your bourgousie possessions
Auto response from L a r e n a 7: getting ready for the doctor and pissed off hard core at good ole gdub...
stupid pink eye!
Should be a red eye! Glorious Mother Russia!
Yarr!
Comrade Nicholai: free yourself, its time to move on, i can assure you that he did (a long time ago)
L a r e n a 7: i know he met the girl when we were still together... i mean or atleast its the way he made it sound
Our Propaganda machines are second to none! We can make anything sound as we please!
MiniTruth never sleeps!
Comrade Nicholai: yet more reason for you to stop obsessing over him
L a r e n a 7: and by together
L a r e n a 7: i mean fucking
L a r e n a 7: because that was the extent of it
Yes you capitalist pig, you were fucked
All good capitalists screw the women. Double bonus points if they are handicapped lesbian transgendered minorities!
L a r e n a 7: in his parents bed nonetheless
At the risk of restating history, it wasn't my parents bed.
L a r e n a 7: i feel gross
You should, weak bourgousie
L a r e n a 7: okay i need to go
L a r e n a 7: laters
Comrade Nicholai: please see someone who can help you get over him
Comrade Nicholai: maybe a shrink
Ice pick!
L a r e n a 7: um im over him.
Comrade Nicholai: sure you are
L a r e n a 7: it bothers me that he denies we were ever together
Why, yes, I certainly believe six impossible things before breakfast...
It bothers Comrade Nicholai that you think of yourself as perfect in all of this
Not that MiniTruth doesn't make the same effort, Comrade...
Comrade Nicholai: but really, get over him
L a r e n a 7: that doesnt mean i want to be with him
Oh, but it does...
12 APRIL 2004
FM TO UNVEIL BOMBSHELL SPEECH BEFORE ASSEMBLY 'WITHIN DAYS'
SPEECH TO INDICATE THAT [PIG] OFFERED MEANINGLESS SEX IN WASHINGTON D.C...
Comrade Nicholai: stop stalking the away messages, just move on
L a r e n a 7: um well considering he obviously reads mine...
This coming from what intel? You are like George Bush and the CIA!
Buwahaha...
Comrade Nicholai: because you keep pulling stuff like this
Comrade Nicholai: just let go
Comrade Nicholai: im sure you're a nice girl who just had a rough time of ti, all the more reason to move on with your life
Nice girl. Comrade Nikolai knows how to place hatchet. Khorosho!
L a r e n a 7: (<---on his bl)
L a r e n a 7: i am moved on from that. im not moved on from his behavior
L a r e n a 7: if that makes sense
it doesnt
Comrade Nicholai: that doesnt make you buddies, you realize its just a term, right?
Comrade Nicholai did feel silly saying this, but it was necessary
It was a dark hour for you...
Comrade Nicholai: you're not moved on period
Comrade Nicholai: and you should just let go
Comrade Nicholai: stop the obsessing
Comrade Nicholai: stop crying to me when he posts some of your finer moments
Posts finer moments. Ah, Comrade Nikolai is bastard! Gloriously brilliant bastard!
L a r e n a 7: um im not obsessing. i don't know what Bolshoi told u about me
L a r e n a 7: im not crying
Keep saying that, over and over
Comrade Nicholai: this seems to be a trend with you
L a r e n a 7: im laughing lol
Comrade Nicholai: the whitewashing of history...
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L a r e n a 7: hrm i think that was Bolshois terms... yes...
You don't say...
Nyet...she doesn't say.
L a r e n a 7: he denies anything that happened between us, and told me how he likes fucking his new gf. it was a great conversation
Didn't you see the Times?
Comrade Nicholai: i dated a girl like you once, together for a very short time, she gets overly attached and goes a little crazy
Note to self: No more crazy borgousie
I seperated you from the wrong girl at Palm Sunday mass...
L a r e n a 7: i think he is full of shit sometimes but whatever
You said something about political dynasty, Nikolai?
Comrade Nicholai: to this day i cant talk to her, and that was 3 years ago
Comrade Nicholai: dont fall down the same hole she did
L a r e n a 7: okay let me explain this
Comrade Nicholai: you dont need to explain anything
Please listen
Comrade Nicholai: you need to move on with your life
L a r e n a 7: its not him... i don't want to be with him.. im pissed off at his behaviour
You imperialists, behavior now needs an extra letter? Back in the motherland we would say, there is no 'u' in behavior. No more though...
It's the British spelling. Like "colour" and the "loo." Do you wonder why they lost the Empire?
Comrade Nicholai: do you think your coming to me is going to make him more or less likely to change his behavior
Comrade Nicholai: while you're thinking about that, ponder this one:
L a r e n a 7: and i can't get over him denying everything. i don't care what he does, just as long as he is honest
Comrade Nicholai: do you think there is any part of this conversation that he wont see?
The KGB may monitor this call for quality assurance
What's that clicking sound?
Doppler effect?
Doesn't that involve...
*thud*
L a r e n a 7: no not at all
Comrade Nicholai: what do you care at all?
L a r e n a 7: because he has quoted ur conversations to me
Did I? When was this, Comrade?
Comrade Nicholai: you had a physical relationship which was short-lived and non-monogamous
Non-monogamous! Mother of Mercy!
L a r e n a 7: why? because i don't sleep with just anyone. and denying it really hits a bad cord
Sure you don't, Comrade Nicholai has no doubt that you are a respectable woman
L a r e n a 7: non-monogamous?
Oops, did Comrade Nicholai let slip a state secret? To the Gulag with me!
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Comrade Nicholai: and here you are, 9 months later, talking to his cousin about how he makes you mad
L a r e n a 7: lets go back... non-monogamous?
Must we?
Wow! That's like dropping Stacy's name in there and then trying to progress the Worker's Revolution without dropping a beat!
Comrade Nicholai: how many other guys do you do this to?
Comrade Nicholai: i can think of at least one more
L a r e n a 7: now that just hit something REALLY sour
It's so easy to hit something sour with you bourgousie
Comrade Nicholai: another short term relationship
L a r e n a 7: ...?
Comrade Nicholai: bob?
Jake? NID forgets the rest, they can be retrieved from archives.
The Party Secretary confirms its support of our asian allies
L a r e n a 7: um i haven't talked to bob since this past summer
L a r e n a 7: and he was my best friend before hand.
Comrade Nicholai: true or false
Comrade Nicholai: you still obsess about bob and his asian girlfriend
L a r e n a 7: hurt? yes. obsess. no.
You say potato...
Potatoe!
L a r e n a 7: when ur best friend does that, it kind of hurts
Comrade Nicholai: i'm just seeing a pattern emerging
L a r e n a 7: well u haven't counted the ones in between at all
L a r e n a 7: so what type of pattern is that?
Comrade Nicholai: short term relationship, ended by the other person, causing you to obsess over them for long amounts of time afterwards
L a r e n a 7: bob was my best friend
L a r e n a 7: Bolshoi was an asshole that is treating me like shit. even bob doesn't treat me like shit anymore by telling his friends the things Bolshoi has told his about me.
Comrade Bob does not speak to you, and I doubt your intelligence apparatus has any clue as to what he tells anyone. By the way, how is your imperialist spy Danielle?
Comrade Nicholai: and i'm sorry things didnt work out
Comrade Nicholai: you've said quite a few things about Bolshoi too
L a r e n a 7: but how about u answer the question about Bolshoi being nonmonogamous...
Comrade Nicholai: i didnt mention Bolshoi in that sentence
L a r e n a 7: Comrade Nicholai: you had a physical relationship which was short-lived and non-monogamous
Comrade Nicholai: i was simply referring to the non-committal nature of your relationship.
Comrade Nicholai: Comrade Nicholai: you had a physical relationship which was short-lived and non-monogamous
L a r e n a 7: Comrade Nicholai: and here you are, 9 months later, talking to his cousin about how he makes you mad
L a r e n a 7: i wasn't seeing anyone else
Comrade Nicholai: too bad for you
Very bad for you
L a r e n a 7: so they only other person that could be was Bolshoi
L a r e n a 7: so why don't u answer the question...?
Comrade Nicholai: what does it matter? you werent in a committed relationship
L a r e n a 7: he said he wouldn't date anyone else
Comrade Nicholai: i can never keep the definitions of words like "date" and "together" straight, and neither can you
Comrade Nicholai: L a r e n a 7: and by together
L a r e n a 7: i mean fucking
Comrade Nicholai: see?
This is a fun game.
Isn't it? I enjoy it thoroughly...
L a r e n a 7: he wouldn't call it exclusive, but he said he wouldn't see anyone else
Does that line still work on you capitalists? Glorious day!
I will pay you tomorrow for a hamburger today...
Comrade Nicholai: its hard, i need a dictionary of some sort
L a r e n a 7: well was Bolshoi hooking up with other girls?
Comrade Nicholai: think about what you just said
L a r e n a 7: i know what i just said
Comrade Nicholai: L a r e n a 7: he wouldn't call it exclusive, but he said he wouldn't see anyone else
L a r e n a 7: it was weird when he said it to me too
That weird feeling is a brain cell dying...
It is the sound of any dense object moving at any fast speed past your head.
Comrade Nicholai: how would i know? do you think i watch him when he's with girls? what kind of sick pervert do you think i am? what are you trying to say?
Insulting to my honor, I shall slay you and your family
L a r e n a 7: he tells u everything it seems
Comrade Nicholai: so what makes you think i then tell you/
Comrade Nicholai: you already said you were in a non-exclusive relationship, thats what i was referring to
WOW! COME OUT AND SAY IT WHY DON'T YOU?!
L a r e n a 7: i said that after u said non monogamouus
Sharp one this capitalist is
How did they win the Cold War?
L a r e n a 7: he told me he wouldn't see anyone else
Comrade Nicholai: what did bob tell you?
L a r e n a 7: but at the end, he wouldn't call it exclusive, but he told me he wouldn't see anyone else
L a r e n a 7: bob? nothing. he denied EVERYTHING. until i called him on it. and he told me 'shes asian. ur not. shes here. ur not. fuck off.'
Never fight a land war in Asia...
So it's like...oh, I don't know, where we're at now but stretched out over longer periods of time? This is the hundred years war!
L a r e n a 7: then slammed down the phone and i haven't talked to him since
Comrade Nicholai: and yet conversations about him still end up in your profile
L a r e n a 7: about bob? which conversations?
Comrade Nicholai: about asian girls and the like, not currently, but not too long ago
L a r e n a 7: yes, because it was the anniversary of the day it happened and he made a big deal about it being my 18 and 2/3 bday so i remembered the date. the fact that it was the day that i lost my best frind
Comrade Nicholai: im sorry for that
No I'm not
18.666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666...I'm sorry, the button got stuck.
Comrade Nicholai: but if you live in the past, its going to be painful
L a r e n a 7: um do u not get upset on the year anniversary of someones death? its the same thing, im not living in the past, but it still is painful
I don't know, how about you die and we'll find out in a year?
I don't think this is a death situation. More of a tactical setback.
L a r e n a 7: with Bolshoi, the past isn't painful, the way he is acting is
Comrade Nicholai: the way you are acting being so superior...
By contrast, Bolshoi doesn't act superior - Bolshoi is superior.
L a r e n a 7: well he also erased an lol
Comrade Nicholai: not an lol!!!!
Nooooo, not a lol!
L a r e n a 7: and when katelyn sees that and asks, i wonder what he will tell her about me. the fact that it will be all false kinda pisses me off. because for it to make sense, it is going to have to be false.
L a r e n a 7: well no, it was a joke. i was laughing
so was i
I was too. We are all in on big funny. Ha!
L a r e n a 7: he erased it, so it looks like i was serious
You weren't?
Comrade Nicholai: katelyn is a nice girl, dont bring her into this
Katelyn is safe.
L a r e n a 7: im not saying she isn't
L a r e n a 7: but im jsut saying i wonder what lies he will have to tell her about it
Comrade Nicholai: oh i'm thinking the truth is fun enough
The truth is most glorious
L a r e n a 7: the fact that we were fucking for a month and a half this summer, i knew one of his friends thru one of my friends, i told my mom who he was and she found out that someone in her office lives down the street, then my period was over a week late and i was scared, but he thinks all that is fucked up.
Whitewashing...
Except for the part where she asked for the name of my parents to hunt me down like Trotsky in Mexico City...
Comrade Nicholai: i think all that is fucked up
L a r e n a 7: after telling me he was willing to try to see how a long distance vacation fuck buddy would work
There will be peace in our time, too. Want to buy a Czech fortress from me?
L a r e n a 7: what part is fucked up?
L a r e n a 7: u dont think im going to tell my friends who im seeing? my mom being one of my best friends...?
One of your only friends...
Comrade Nicholai: your whitewashing of history
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Thank you!
L a r e n a 7: so what is missing?
Comrade Nicholai: the timing is interesting, plus your im-ing bolshoi's brother, among other family members
L a r e n a 7: other family members?
Comrade Nicholai: me
Can you believe I had to answer that question?
Yes. Her density is so great it bends all thoughts into its own field...
L a r e n a 7: i believe u imed me
Comrade Nicholai: to warn you off
L a r e n a 7: right
L a r e n a 7: so u initiated
Was this today or months ago?
Comrade Nicholai: do we need to talk about how many screen names you have?
Please say yes
Yes! And list!
L a r e n a 7: and the brother has an easy sn to remember
A likely excuse, bourgousie pig cannot even remember her lies!
That is my great fear.
L a r e n a 7: i do have many
For the sake of the motherland! She admits her puny intelligence network!
List!
L a r e n a 7: now i can be on alot all at once
Comrade Nicholai: i know
Comrade Nicholai: 3 in fact
L a r e n a 7: nope more than tat
Comrade Nicholai: right now? impressive
This is most distressing, our satellites must be in full array
It's OK, we're picking up most of them. Usually it's 3, sometimes surged to 4 or 5.
Comrade Nicholai: i only have 21 for you total though
L a r e n a 7: hrm well i dont know what most of them are
Too unwieldy for you? Bourgousie weakness!
Like my ICBM...
L a r e n a 7: since my comp crashed and i lost them. i only have a few on this comp
You will crash down just like your puny military will before our might!
Da!
L a r e n a 7: so did Bolshoi hack into my comp like he threatened?
L a r e n a 7: does he know everything that i do?
Well, I know everything that she does, but that's just because she bleeds her heart out to the world.
As for hacking qua computer security risk analysis, I don't have the time nor inclination. However, being on a constant internet connection with no firewall screams stupidity...
Comrade Nicholai: no, but i think you're smoking too much, little paranoid
Comrade Nicholai reminds you, just because you're paranoid does not mean that everyone is not out to get you.
Thank you, Henry!
L a r e n a 7: not really
L a r e n a 7: i just thought about it
L a r e n a 7: bc i have more than 3 sns up but between Bolshoi and u, ur only on 3 of the sns
Comrade Nicholai: lol
Comrade Nicholai: only
This is like saying Hitler only suffered minor defeat at Stalingrad!
Small!
L a r e n a 7: well yes, because Bolshoi had this one on ignore for a while. and it was before i dled the new aim
Comrade Nicholai: why do you think he had it on ignore...
L a r e n a 7: is that a question?
Comrade Nicholai: just thinking outloud
L a r e n a 7: well ill answer it ~ its easier to tell himself something never happened when the direct proof of it doesn't im him
So...do I get new AIM and remove her from the lists?
Comrade Nicholai loves it when puny capitalists pretend to be psychiatrists... Really...
No, she purports to have psych major. Do you see how the field has gone down hill?
Comrade Nicholai: you fucked, i wouldnt get too bogged down in the details
L a r e n a 7: i know. but he likes to deny it
L a r e n a 7: to himself, to me, probably even to u.
Puny capitalist lies!
Obviously, Nikolai is deep in the denial. Look at blog!
Comrade Nicholai: he doesnt deny it to himself or to me, he simply looks at it for what it is
Comrade Nicholai: not the glorious relationship you trick yourself into thinking it was
L a r e n a 7: um we hung out and fucked for a month and a half
L a r e n a 7: we talked alot at first, but not so much later...
Comrade Nicholai: during which there was no committment
You want to see committment? You watch how we deploy our troops to Chechnya!
Good bye, Grozny! Ahahaha
L a r e n a 7: well he said he wouldnt see anyone else
L a r e n a 7: thats as committed as it got
Comrade Nicholai: and yet you cant move on
Silly capitalists, they have no sense of historical precedent
Yes. It's a big weakness. Irving Kristol keeps bashing Adam Smith for it in Neoconservatism.
L a r e n a 7: the first night we hung out at the shore house, he actually sent me the im he had with one of his friends.
L a r e n a 7: the kid asked how was his night and he replied. amazing :-D
Who was the kid, what was sent, what was the time? I demand answers!
Comrade Nicholai: he got laid
L a r e n a 7: and i just remember that. its the only nice thing he like ever said about it
L a r e n a 7: no he didn't
L a r e n a 7: not that night
It wasnt long before he was taking the only thing you have to offer the world
Well...she alleges we had sex on the second "date" and so, therefore, this could only be the first "date"
L a r e n a 7: and um he told me he didn't have too much experience in um going down on girls, and he couldn't put on a condom... i figured he didn't have too much experience with any of it...
This is true. Bolshoi Capitalist does not go down...like Kursk!
Comrade Nicholai: what does that have to do with anything?
Comrade Nicholai apologizes for the fact that conversations with borgousie read like cheap paperback
L a r e n a 7: well he is going to have more fun if it is his first time.
Urgh.
L a r e n a 7: but what i don't understand is why he just didn't tell me that... i mean, if he wanted to get laid before going away to college, he should have just told me that straight up
The only thing straight up is the Tapeo-Dong!
Comrade Nicholai: if you needed to be medicated, you should have told him that straight up
Comrade Nicholai: but that is neither here nor there
Just like you silly capitalists to not get the medication you need. You need our Socialist Healthcare!
Yes! Go go NHS!
L a r e n a 7: um riiight... i don't need to be medicated, other than for this damn pink eye
RED EYE!
Beat her for her right-deviationism!
Comrade Nicholai: i need to get something accomplished today, as fun as your obsessive whitewashing is, it doesnt do my errands for me
Another plug for this glorious site!
That is, I believe, a hat-trick...
Comrade Nicholai: enjoy your day, try not to get bogged down by the memories
Memories of the grand old days of the Shah
L a r e n a 7: i need to register but the systems down
Silly capitalist system fails you!
L a r e n a 7: which is why im here
L a r e n a 7: yeah.... memories.... right....
Comrade Nicholai: live for the future
Comrade Nicholai really hates hippies who talk like this, he is mocking the capitalist!
Hey! Oh, her, yes.
L a r e n a 7: i do. thats why i made sure Bolshoi was a republican before i fucked him.
Silence woman! Bolshoi is a good party man!
If true, it confirms that Republicans screw women and minorities.
I'd like to plug Bush/Cheney '04 at this juncture...
Comrade Nicholai: lol, just like republicans, always fucking the women
So true, what the United States needs is a President Kucinich!
No, President Mosley-Braun. Those penises will be in a bunch in no time flat!
L a r e n a 7: right
Comrade Nicholai: not that anything you say makes sense
Oops! Did Comrade Nicholai say that out loud?
Comrade Nicholai: goodbye lauren, i hope the next time we have a little chat you're over Bolshoi
Over him like the working man will be over the capitalist pigs!
L a r e n a 7: okay if u keep telling me im not over him, im going to start fucking believing it. im over whatever it was, im pissed at how hes acting.
Comrade Nicholai: well maybe if you keep telling yourself that you'll belive it too
Comrades, we can play this game at home! Repeat after me, "imperialism is not immoral..."
It is moral and profitable!
Comrade Nicholai: but regardless
Comrade Nicholai: adieu
And by this, Comrade Nicholai means please keep talking
Good trick.
L a r e n a 7: i don't want to believe something false
Like capitalism?
L a r e n a 7: then i would be Bolshoi
You would need a lot of your capitalist pig dog sex surgery to be Bolshoi!
And a missile.
Want to see why they call it a long dong?
L a r e n a 7: or atleast no better than him
No better than him... Sounds like Communism!
Communism: Hey, we're number!
#2 fell off the sign...
L a r e n a 7: bye
Sing along comrades, "And I'm leaving, on the midnight train to Georgia (the Soviet Republic)."
Siberia. One way. No stops.
North Korea tightens grip over media...
thanks for the comments.
Bolshoi is above commenting. It risks ceasing the feed of continuous material. Do you believe that we are only in Jan 10 2003 of entries? An entire year more awaits!
i am now screening comments before i put them up and, because many are personal, i reply via email, rather than showing them. so for the person on campus that asked if it bothered me. it bothers me that some people don't have the balls
Notice the testicular fixation...
to come forward as to what is posted, but it doesn't bother me at all that you aren't reading them. that is all.
hmm...I don't get what that means, but the Great Leader has spoken.
The following two posts are so worthless they will be consolidated.
You Are A Fine Wine!
Shit, I need a drink.
Sophisticated, classy, experienced and knowledgeable.
Knowledgeable? How about the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train knowledgeable?
All of these characteristics come in handy in whatever scene you find yourself in.
Puking in a bathroom at a dive...
Like, if a guy takes you out to dinner, he’d better take you to a nice restaurant.
Or else? What are the punitive sanctions that will come about as a consequence?
No middle-of-the-road place will do.
This is, of course, the end of the road...
You’re chic.
GAG!
You must be entertained in the manner to which you have grown accustomed.
Involving, of course, a vibrator and the jaws of life.
And woe unto he who “jus’ don’t get it!”
Woe! Preach it!
Pinky in the air? You’d better believe it.
And nose too, if Joe Frat Boy ever tries to make time with you.
We shall see how the direction of time takes her.
What Cocktail Are You?
Bolshoi wanted to bold cock, but such a move is immature...
More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
You Are G-String Panties!
I just can't do it!
100% pure raw sex, baby!
No, I mean, literally, HOW could you sleep with him? He's so fat! The mechanics of it is just mind-boggling!
You're hot and not afraid to flaunt it.
Danger, Will Robinson! Danger!
What's Kind of Panties Are *You*?
NYET!
You know, school hasn't even started yet and all ready I have homework.
Tissue?
i have to read the consti-fuckin-tution. well, parts of it anyway, for my grad course.
An informed populace is the best bulwark of liberty...
pooopgina.
I shit you not, she said that.
Bolshoi will take liberty of truncating the mindnumbingly stultifyingly boring parts and focus on relationship dynamics. Bolshoi promises it is for your own good and there is nothing interesting in it...mostly relates to pig's course schedule.
Well, the shittiest part of my day was finding something that reminded me of good times with Bob.
Bob, as you recall, is the one who cheated on her with the Asian. Comrade Nikolai will have post later discussing matter.
I found the piece of paper that I wrote his cell number on.
Super.
Last winter break, he got himself a cell phone. I was the first person he called on it. And I wrote his number down on a little piece of paper that had kittens on it. I found that piece of paper. He was calling me to hang out. I think that night we went and saw a movie. I don't remember which one though. He had all these free movie tickets last christmas so we did it alot.
Alot. But watch, this is the odd part...
Or we may have gone to Ruby Tuesdays. Actually I think that was the night we went to dinner then a movie.
Make up your mind. But wait for it...
Damn, it was almost like we were dating then lol.
Almost like we were dating. Incisive, isn't that?
When I think about that, I miss him.
And I'm sure he misses you...
Lavrenti: NID says that his profile says he loves the Asian and that the Asian loves him since, I believe, 2002...
When I think about the last time I talked to him, I dont.
Stay strong, pig. Now is not the time to go wobbly...
I miss the Bob that was my best friend. Not the asian-loving, I cheat on my girlfriend Bob.
My girlfriend. Almost.
After he stopped talking to me, he went down the tubes.
Isn't that always the case?
His mother at one point told my mom that she was so happy that we were spending so much time together because I was a good influence and he had been dating a girl that was completely wrong for him. (I guess she was talking about Cathleen and I guess she thought we were dating.) Well, he stopped hanging out with me and again has gone to shit.
The pot! He has gone to the pot!
Whatever. He needs way too much work now.
Does this remind you of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, or is it just me?
I don't even think I could handle that transition. LoL. Eh whatever. I miss the good bob that was once my best friend. Not who he is now.
Okay, back to packing. Later skaters~!
Later skaters. Bolshoi does not make this up...
brian keeps putting stuff in his profile and away messages about him and his girlfriend having sex.
The away messages reference what Katelyn means to me. It is nekulturniy to mention sex in an away message, which is what she theoretically would do...
i find it really ironic.
OK, kiddies, AP Literature Lesson. What is the definition of irony? Anyone? Is it: "incongruity between what might be expected and what actually occurs?" CORRECT!
this summer, he needed to be shown how to put on a condom
Figure 1 is the erect male organ. Figure 2 is the condom...Questions? No. Now you start to see the lies form just out of a realization of the impracticality of her story.
and then i needed to tell him how to dispose them.
Oh, and Spencer -- don't forget to flush...
and now all of a sudden he is a sex expert?
Well, I blame genetics and biology...
riiight lol. well, im sure he found himself a virgin.
My drinks are shaken, not stirred...
actually, i think one of his away messages was about how he took her virginity. so um i guess he has a one up on her. lol.
Actually, you can read all about it in the front page advertisement in the New York Times on Wednesday.
here is a pic of Bri that a lil birdy gave me...
Lavrenti: By little birdy, she means Danielle Young. You may ask, how does NID know Danielle is the spy? Pig admitted to Commissar Nikolai that her spy at Bolshoi State's name is Danielle. Unfortunately, using the 'stalker-net' (which is how Danielle obtained my picture), pig now has my picture here. I used 'stalker-net' to identify Danielles in Bolshoi State. Of course, Danielle's picture and name comes up first.
Now, Bolshoi goes through records and uses relational tracking to make certain that Danielle is spy. Very good, Bolshoi finds out. Poor Danielle has identified who she likes to swim team in drunken fit. Secret Services report back accordingly and Bolshoi advises close ally to steal Danielle's man. QED, Danielle is in the cold, Bolshoi's ally has boyfriend and pig is thwarted.
https://iisweb01.babson.edu/onecard_photos/C1791968.jpg
Bad picture, I know, but isn't Bolshoi seksay? Something about cheekbones, and those eyes...ooh!
I said I wouldn't post the quizzes, as they fisk themselves...but the extraordinary events of the past few days requires renewed analysis.
You Are a Sensual Kiss!
Load the torpedos...
Wet, soft, sweet, rough…
Nauseating, violently aggressive with a fairly disgustingly sweet taste...
For you, kissing is all about how it feels
For me, it is about resisting further incursions against my sovereignty...
Whether you're kissing a longtime sweetie or a stranger
Or, in her trenchant case, elements of her family...
It's all about the sensual experience, nothing else!
I don't make this up, really...
You Are a Perfect Lay!
Ethyl, hold me!
All sorts of guys long to hook up with you, but your standards are set high.
Yay high (pulls out meter stick)
You don't just give it up to anyone, but when you do...they can't get enough of you!
My God, this has reached a new 52 week low. Mind you that these quizzes are rooted in answers which she gives. QED, she believes this of herself...
You have a knack for pleasing and receiving, and sex with you is never boring.
Recieving. Uncannily accurate.
Only problem is ~ they all seem to be falling in love with you...
Oh yes, that is the case!!!
Extraordinary events have brought me back from the grave...
L a r e n a 7: Bolshoi, you love anyone that will go down on you...the things you say during that are very interesting...
Hostility. I sense it, I just can't put my finger on why it's there...
Auto response from * * * * * * 7: i love you katelyn :-)
Bolshoi Capitalist has new girlfriend, Katelyn. Is glorious apparatchnik, so cute. Everything the borgouisie pig is not...
L a r e n a 7: so delusional Bolshoi, so delusional...
Pot, kettle, black black black
i guess its considered 'stalking' to read away messages now...
Lavrenti says the stalking is when you use your 21 spy accounts to maintain a regime of espionage and deception...
and to deny that we ever slept together in your parents bed
I deny that comment, yes.
in your summer home... now thats just lying.
No, Bolshoi Capitalist disavows he slept with borgouisie pig in parents bed.
heh, its wonderful that daniel knows it all...
Vice-Chairman of the NID? Or...is there someone else?
but just so u know, the sn thing goes both ways. if you like me to give yours out to... i dunno... some Rodina State people that i could most definitely find online, i so could...
Shock and horror. Although, with the mirror comment, I am insulated from the negative political implications. Ah, audience does not know mirror comment. It will come in later.
they would LOVE to know that someone so active in campus is definitely so flawed.
And by flawed, she means uncommitted to self-destruction as an instrumentality of policy...
If you didn't ever want to talk to me again, why sleep with me last summer?
Non-sequituror Irrelevant Thesis...
and if you are going to put what i said in your away message, atleast have the balls to put it all...
Character limit.
Auto response from * * * * * * 7: Happy Easter to All from the NSC and the delusional stalker!
* * * * * * 7: Bolshoi, you love anyone that will [REDACTED]...the things you say during that are very interesting...
* * * * * * 7: and its great to know that i save online conversations too, right?
I couldn't care, either way.
* * * * * * 7: like almost EVERY ONE we ever had. why? i don't know. because i had my suspicions that you were in fact a liar.
"Listen; I'm a politician which means I'm a cheat and a liar, and when I'm not kissing babies I'm stealing their lollipops. But ... it also means I keep my options open..."
which were true.
Heathen Liar!
and isn't it also great to know that my friend shawn saw us together in point pleasant that night making out by my car.
Staged?
how did he know it was me? the hat in the back gave it away along with my school sticker... u know, u can tell everyone u know that im a liar, but u know the truth.
My guilty conscience. Ethyl, my pills!
or maybe ur so messed up that u don't. either way, the truth is reality,
A is A...
which you seem to have skewed. but you do have alot of growing up to do.
Recall, I am 6'8"...
i figured college would do that, but you are no better than the average college freshman, meaning that i was most definitely wrong about you.
Well, Bolshoi is a Freshman with Sophomore Standing. Don't let the facts stand in the way of your argument.
* * * * * * 7: either way, if you want to 'respond' to me like this, i can respond the same way
I choose to respond via the Whitewashing of History...
* * * * * * 7: found something u might be interested in
Cyanide tablets in the teeth?
Auto response from * * * * * * 7: Happy Easter to All from the NSC and the delusional stalker!
* * * * * * 7: Bolshoi, you love anyone that will [REDACTED]...the things you say during that are very interesting...
* * * * * * 7: L a r e n a 7 (1:22:29 AM): i have a question. when someone asks u if ur single, what do u say? do u still say ur seeing someone?
Hey baby, what's up?
Bolshoi (1:23:09 AM): no one has asked me
Suffice to say, of course, after the mirror incident, I was asked. Bolshoi's answer to come within context of historicist answer...
Bolshoi (1:23:14 AM): and it depends on context
Da. If fugly girl asks me, such answer will be nyet!
Bolshoi (1:23:38 AM): if someone from college asked, i'd say no,
But which college? Once you start pulling on the meaning of words in a post-modernist deconstructionist interpretation of the lingustic constructs which we use on a day to day basis, meaning ceases to exist...
i am because we wouldn't be together.
FORESHADOWING. WRITE THIS DOWN, KIDDIES!
but if someone asks me now, i'd say yes.
Much to my consternation.
* * * * * * 7 (1:24:04 AM): thats a messed up answer...
It is truthful. It is the full truth, which, you will see, is obviously a lie. Don't you understand?
* * * * * * 7 (1:25:03 AM): thats a really messed up answer
Ignorance is Strength. War is Peace.
Bolshoi (1:25:48 AM): it's true, though. it's factually accurate reflecting the situation
That's the way it turns out...
* * * * * * 7 (1:26:23 AM): you would tell someone u were single even though u were exclusively dating someone else?
Dating, also, begs the question what our dates comprised and what the meaning of it all was...Was there any meaning? My conjecture is no.
Bolshoi (1:27:00 AM): we're extremely, not exclusively, i haven't turned anyone down and i would turn anyone down if it happened today but i am not going to do that in college.
I'm not sure what I said there, to be honest.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
a certain someone with the sn lgjm4ever7
Whoever you are, you deserve Order of Red Banner
is iming me and leaving interesting posts on my journal.
Interesting. You'll notice she's panicking.
well first off, this is the girl that i've been told is 'too weird for words.'
Pot. Kettle. BLACKBLACKBLACK!!!
need i say more?
No, but you will. Oh, how you will...
secondly, about this C-word character. I don't hate her.
No...you're above hate and post-human in emotions...
And I especially dont want to be anything like her.
Skanky a priori implies she's getting action.
Yes, i do think working in retail the rest of my life is a fate worse than death.
He would agree...
As, do I think that of becoming as my former calculus tutor likes to put it, a rent-a-friend.
Former. And tutor for calculus. She's not taking multivariable, she's probably in the bootleg derivative-is-all-we'll-get-to and you can't use your calculators...
I mean, 90% of the psych majors I have met are strange, really really strange and have alot of psychological problems, and the other 10% are really interested in the subject in order to help others.
Precisely that distribution curve. It's a fact. Really.
From what I hear about Carissa and from who her best friend is, I would say she is one of the majority of psych majors.
The company you keep...
And its like jake said, 'which one of my girlfriends isn't the weird one?' I say me.
BUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
But, no, I'm weird. And I know that. But I am weird for the better, you know?
Hitler was a good painter. He could paint an entire room in an afternoon. Two coats!
Some people are weird and are like an eyesore to society.
They must, of course, be exterminated. In the bat of an eyelash, humanity must conform to my image of the world.
Others are weird and are the marvels of society.
Deep. Like the farking ocean.
I know I will do great things.
So did this man and this man. You're in good company, Mein President...
I can't wait to go to med school. I can't wait to go places.
Like this place
Anyway, I love being me. I mean, there is one thing about myself that I wish I could change, but even if that changed, I wouldn't be me. There is this one girl in my sorority who last year, well, I really thought she hated me. This year, I have been around her alot, and, well, she is great, and we really have become friends.
Keep your friends close and your enemies...
Someone told me about a conversation they had with her, about me. I think that I have to be one of the most least attractive people I know. But this girl, said to someone that she thought I wasn't.
Oh Etyl, my pills...
She thought I was pretty. And you know what, it means alot. No, in this case, I'm not going to mention names. But, it made me realize that beauty has no limits, especially size limits. Let me tell you, a 6 foot hole in the ground can be pretty ugly. But, the grand canyon, the largest hole in the ground, is amazing.
Not beautiful but amazing. Form, function and utility.
So yes, I love being me. And maybe I'm not the hottest girl, but I am beautiful, inside and out.
Napoleon was not the tallest of men...
I forget where this post is going.
Good. That makes two of us.
I just know that I love where my life is going. I love my friends. Amanda and Becka and Meghan and Grace and Steph and Michelle and Julia and really everyone in the sorority is great! I mean I love my friends from school, especially Dan. I mean, Dan can make me feel :-) on the shittiest day of the shittiest week in the shittiest month of the shittiest year.
Notice the anal tendencies...
I love him.
And he loves...pork-rinds. Mmm...
And I love that he is so happy. And I love that he is a chem major, so we get to take all those fun upper levels together. He is so smart. I mean, do u know anyone that will spell out your name with molecule models?
Nerds? Granted, Bolshoi is a nerd but, you know...
Or how about get u an orange soda when u need it most because u have bad girl problems? Oh he is so so great. I just love being me. I love that I love being me. And I love that I am telling you all that I love being me. As Roberto Benini put it best, "Life is beautiful. Especially my life~!"
Didn't the death camps come in after that?
Okay, I did a little paraphrasing at the end there...
Revisionism for dummies
Okay, so wherever this post was supposed to go, it didn't go there.
The ash-heap of history is getting full...
But I love being me and I am happy that I surround myself with great people and great minds and um great things. I'm sorry, but every time I put on my new diamond necklace,
Cubic Zirconium. You like?
I feel so much better about myself. It is like buying nice underwear.
I'M FARKING BLIND!!!
It isn't about how they look, its about how they make u feel. Okay, I am off and I am damn proud to be me :-)
Super.
i hate going back and reading posts because there is so much more i wish i could say.
Glories of Blogger.
i mean, when i go back and read things, more things come to me. like there were so many more things about Bolshoi and bob that could be in here, and especially jake.
Glutton for punishment...
i mean, i know other people that i probably don't want reading my journal are reading it,
HULLO!
but i dont really mind.
Oh, you do. Otherwise why do you retract so many posts and comments?
i mean, if they want to laugh at my life, let them.
We laugh until you try storming the borders. Kinda like the Israelis to the Arabs...
i do.
Khorosho.
i mean, my social life is pretty amusing.
Harrowing.
at the age of 19, i think i have enough info for a whole book series. maybe even trashy novels.
I'd bet on the latter, as you readers will soon find out.
maybe not. i guess they would be more in the dark comedy genre.
Very dark. Bleak, like night.
its like i said to jake, not original, but it got the word across. 'what if this is as good as it gets?' and i told jake that i knew it wasn't as good as it got for him. but for me? i can see it.
What? I assume that this is bad...
book 1 ~ he said that all his friends were doing it. i guess he didn't care that i was only 14.
Ah, her encounters with the phallus...brings back old memories of Cold War. Da!
Book 2- i promise ill be perfect
(stifles laughter)
book 3 - asshole#2, and yes im in the marching band
One time, at band camp, I...
book 4- 1-2-3 don't die. yes, i swim. u may not be able to tell by the size of me but im a pretty damn good swimmer.
(stifles laughter)
book 5- irc...bobbo and me?
Egypt Air Flight 990, your flight is now boarding...
book 6- lifeguarding... oh the hot stoned guard...
What's in these brownies, man...
book 7- asshole#3 and hes dating a bulemic freshman
If I only had a brain...
book 8- my new car! if only i wasn't a shitty driver
Thwack.
book 9- 2 jobs, 1 boy
Hand and...
book 10- jake part 1
Oh, it's a saga...
book 11, 12, 13 - jake parts 2,3,4
Did I say saga? I meant epic narrative, a yarn which streches for eons and eons...
book 14- and then i found out he lied, and i cried
We can consolidate this into Jake IV.
book 15 - HOVA 7
Not Hoyas, in case you're taking note at home. This rejection will hurt...
book 16-holidays...rekindling old friendships
And by kindling, she means torching.
book 17- my best friend just killed me inside (or wham bam would u like an eggroll with that maam)
Oh my God...
book 18 - chemistry boot camp and Bolshoi
Where do we go from here?
book 19- what now?
Stop writing, for the love of God!
and im sure those would all be long long long books...
oy!
Oy Gevalt!
Your element is Fire.
Here we go again.
Wild and free.
And destructive.
Your emotions
lead you everywhere.
VISA: It's everywhere you want to be.
You are a very passionate
person,
Like dead fish...
though sometimes forceful and
Coercive.
destructive
See? Prescience...
you have a goal in life, even if
that goal is just to make it another day.
Or to ruin someone else's. But, alas, you are too stupid to do this.
Fire
consumes and purifys, it also protects.
Focus on the consumption, Ace.
There
is always caution with fire because once it is
started on something there is no telling how
much it can destroy.
Can I have a Hallelujah?
Fire people have the same
tendency when mad you could be a candle burning
but if someone tips you over...
You might burn a hole in the carpet?
Unfortunately, this was not Bolshoi.
to whoever the person with the boston ip who is 'commenting' anonymously...
It's OK, there are only 574283 of you as residents and more in the surrounding suburban areas...
its my opinion just like you have yours. but this is my journal meant for my opinions.
And this is our journal meant for a bipartisan group of people who want you to shove it up your blowhole. When we figure out how to enable comments, all can post.
and if you would like for me to actually care about yours, you might want to tell me who u are.
I am the Shadow.
if not, i could just delete ur posts.
You will be silenced for your right deviationist views.
okay that is all.
Bolshoi must defend his cause.
i have become very conservative since i have been at GW.
See Coulter, Ann.Bolshoi dislikes drama, cause without substance or lack of philosophical base to ideology. Makes our cause dumb, like rock.
going to a liberal school made me realize how there are so many people that have weird political views.
Weird. Inexplicable that people are not entirely white and of the upper class. Inexplicable that some do not come from strong families, that some are immigrants...
I mean, I think with my head when it comes to politics, not my heart.
Don't we have a good track record for her head and heart here, Comrades?
I had to take all that leadership bullshit in highschool so I learned a little about what it takes to be a leader.
A Dear Leader. A Great Leader. A Strong Leader. It involves calling leadership bullshit, you see. That's Day 3...
One of the requirements is to find middle-ground between democratic and authoritarian leadership.
Uhh...I don't like where this is going. Obvious examples are the Islamic Republic of Iran. The middle ground between authortarianism as statism and libertarianism is like finding the middle ground between food and poison, as Rand illustrated.
I know I am splitting hairs, but the opposite of authoritarianism is not democracy. Democracy, without the corrective influence of the rule of law, inexorably leads to authoritarianism. (See the Road to Serfdom).
Now, this is nitpicking some will say. But if your basic premises are flawed, if A is not A, the entire system falls apart. Bad definitions are the hobgoblin of lazy minds.
Why is it that conservatives base their views on facts and democrats on opinion?
It is my opinion that is not the case. Let's just look at the logical fallacies in that argument. You have hasty generalization, guilt by the association of a narrow few, misleading vividness, red herrings, appeal to belief, composition error...
Most people, conservatives and liberals, agree that Fox News, a conservative station, is most forward-coming with facts.
Appeal to popularity, bandwagon, biased sample, burden of proof...Bolshoi is a Conservative and Bolshoi watches Fox News because it is so overwhelmingly right that anyone can see through the fair and balanced slogan. I would like specific examples for when Fox News has come forward with facts ahead of, say, CNN...
There are more maps and charts on Fox, where as on CNN there are more pictures.
What? Is this a study? I don't think this is a logical fallacy because it's not an argument. The snarky way of proving this wrong is that a map and chart can be done in pictoral form. But wow, that's stupid.
Why is that? Is the democratic party merely propaganda?
Is the Republican Party the house for wealthy whites? Well, it's begging A STUPID QUESTION. Both parties equally engage in propaganda and that is why Bolshoi distrusts all pols equally. This is just a stupid argument not backed up by any evidence.
Hrm... food for thought... i need sleep.
Clearly.
Bolshoi will fisk this based on solidarity with Asian allies...
okay so i randomly went on another sn
By another, she means 20. All of them being watched by Lavrenti. And by randomly, she means she did it with an obvious intention to talk to this poor girl...
and saw that bob's asian was online.
Notice the dehumanizing language. Free response: one point if you guess what other tyrants dehumanized their opponents...
i should have copied the convo but it went something like this:
We don't want truth, nyet. It gets in the way of the Whitewashing of History. Comrade Nikolai reports that historical logs are being erased. Bolshoi hopes GoogleCache will save day.
me: you must love it (or it must be fun...i don't remember)
Silly borgouisie, with their human emotions. We have none of that in worker's paradise. Fun? Why would anyone need that?
her: yeah sure
Who is this and why won't she go away?
me: giving a boy his sexual fantasy that has been brewing inside of him since the age of 14
Percolating, like Comrade Nikolai's coffee...hot and black, the way she likes her...
me: and almost every day
Almost. Weasel words are used as qualifiers to weaken and triangulate statements.
me: while he is looking for emotion and love somewhere else
ME! ISN'T IT OBVIOUS? HE SPENDS ALL HIS TIME WITH YOU, SLEEPS WITH YOU, GOES OUT ON DATES WITH YOU BUT REALLY, DEEP DOWN LOVES ME! ME ME! ALTHOUGH HE NEVER TALKS TO ME, CALLS ME, IMS ME, ET.C....
no wonder she refuses to listen to what i know, yes, for a fact.
A fact. Why, I have a list here of 22 Communists in the State Department...
if your boyfriend is cheating on you, clap your hands X X
If you've lost the clash of civilizations and the war of ideas and don't admit it, clap your hands X X X X X....
That is last time Comrade Nikolai is allowed near capitalist coffee machine. Too much caffeine, too little time...
Party must make decision. We can fisk all articles relating to her life or only ones involving Bolshoi Capitalist.
Reminiscent of debates between Stalin and Trotsky, da? Trotsky wanted total fisking. Stalin wanted fisking in one country. Something like that. Bolshoi Capitalist doesn't even believe in Marxism...
Whitewashing of History only involves Bolshoi today. But will it be that way tomorrow? Bolshoi does not know...great debate. Bolshoi will see. Time will tell for Bolshoi.
Monday, March 29, 2004
You Should Pose For Playboy!
Comrade Nicholai flatly denies this as capitalist propaganda... oh wait, this is about the borgouisie...
You're looking to hit the big with mansions and celebrities -
This is capitalist filth! And hit the big? Hit the big what? Hit the big capitalist pig until it does comrades! Workers of the world unite!
and Playboy's your ticket baby!
Kruschev had a ticket to Crimea... we know how this story ends.
You'll party with the hottest stars and become
Partying makes the soul weak and the body soft! We do not allow such silly concepts in the motherland! Nor do we like these silly stars! Where is the equality? We shall overthrow the borgouisie pigs!
Hugh Hefner's favorite girl (or at least one of six).
Hugh Hefner is a disgusting capitalist. Hording women who only sleep with him because he has money and can make them have money. What a revolting concept for the world's workers.
As a Playboy bunny
You know what we do with bunnies in the motherland? We skin and eat them.
you'll swim in the grotto
Comrade Nicholai is not even sure what this grotto that you speak of is, but is sure that it is a product of you whoring capitalists.
and be the object of every guy's fantasy.
The object of my fantasy is a communist world free of classes...
Playboy is very selective about who they let in
Shun this capitalist institution for communism! Everyone is equal! The selectiveness of capitalist societies will be left behind!
but you just might have what it takes.
Comrade Nicholai seriously doubts this.
Who knows?
Comrade Nicholai knows!
You may be stomping all over Pamela Anderson
If Pamela Anderson is a borgouisie pig then Comrade Nicholai thinks you have the right idea!
with your come-fuck-me platforms!
I have a socialist communist worker's party platform...
What Porn Magazine Would Kill to Have You On the Cover?
You weak capitalists know nothing of real killing. You make Comrade Nicholai sick to stomach!
okay so jake is gonna be here in about um 2 hours time....
My God. It's like knowing when Pearl Harbor was about to happen...
and i feel like i have nothing to wear....does that mean that i should wear nothing? hehe... NO im not that kinda girl...not anymore.
I'M FARKING BLIND!!!
but maybe no underwear. okay that was TMI. lol. but im pretty sure only people i know and care about read this.
The NID: We know because we care.
and the ocasional posting from someone i never speak to or don't even know. well, whatever. anyway, doesn't mean im not gonna be myself. im nervous about today because every time i see jake its something new. a new feeling, a new realization...
Next she'll tell us about her orgasms.
and just when i think i have it down, i see him again and BAM something else comes up.
Your penis.
Well, im hoping im prepared. He sounded really down on the phone last night so hopefully i can cheer him up. After that, I have to go to my trainer so hopefully nothing too strenuous will happen ;-).
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Ya'll know im jokin, right? just wanna make that clear if the girl carissa has asked to read all my away messages and shit reads this. okay, i gotta go get ready. Later today, a post about the visit, last night and why having older friends is so cool, and about my training session and what wonderful words of wisdom chris has for me today. ciao.
Dasvedenya.
you know, it is way to quiet in new jersey. i always oversleep. why? because there is no noise to wake we up. i sort of miss the mass construction and the traffic outside my window...
Stimulating.
okay but to answer everyone's question about my last post... why didn't i mention any current boys? easy. because there are none
Oh Ethyl, my pills...
and i really have no desire to meet any right now. im not in the position for a relationship so its not a big deal. I also, when I find a relationship, want it to be serious, and where I am in my life, nothing can be serious.
By serious, I mean I will have the larger penis.
I dont know what the next years will bring so how can I ever bring someone else into my life and expect there to be stability. I will never give anything up for a guy.
Write that down, gentlemen. This woman is quite a catch...
I need to be able to get to where I want by myself, because if something doesn't work out, all I have is me. I can't have a guy holding me back.
Gentlemen, there is only enough room for one penis in the relationship. That does not mean you.
So yeah, that's why there is no mention of finding new boys. plus, I can barely handle my past ones.
Jan, get back here!
Well, since Jake, it is harder to get over the ones that I have cared about.
As Bolshoi Capitalist learned...
Why? not a clue... okay, to the mall. laters.
No clue - the story of most of her policies.
so i have been off for over 2 weeks now and it has felt great~!
The NID initially expected that she died in a plane crash with the Military Dictator of Pakistan...
i really didn't call anyone or do anything and i needed that. i mean, i saw jess and amanda once, but i was home with my family most of the time. my first full day off, i got a call from my mom and i had to rush to my grandma's house because she wasn't doing so well. then a few days later, I had to put my Dallas to sleep because he had a tumor on his liver that ruptured and was bleeding into his stomach; because he had turned anemic, we couldn't even operate.
Bolshoi Capitalist observes a moment of silence.
well, christmas was still great, i got a white gold and diamond necklace which was custom made for me by a supposedly well-known ny jeweler. don't tell my mom, but i know that it was made by a family friend....even though he is a pretty good jeweler and in ny...lol.
Again, materialism is the fuel of the revolution. Once the inequality between the rich and the poor....
i also got the burberry perfume that i wanted and a bunch of clothes and stuff for my apartment. oh and did i mention that im getting my ultimate christmas gift? the crazy roommate is moving out~!
She can't handle it either? Allegedly, she sent this crazy roommate on a one way mission of Allah towards the National Leadership Cadres...the NID, with the above and beyond duty of Commissar Nikolai, was able to defuse the plot before it entered its terminal phase.
:-P and Grace, one of my favorite phi sigs, is moving in~!!!
Lavrenti believes we have them on watch as well.
as to everyone else's christmas, my mom is looking into buying a hummer
I prefer to call prostitution "timesharing" It's more diplomatic.
bc her car is just a little too old for our liking... a 93 jeep grand cherokee limited. yes, it was the first year that the cars were made, but still... i would rather go for the hummer...
Once again, Bolshoi Capitalist does not make this up...
and the 2005 hummer it just may be later this year. my dad's big present was a like 50 inch flat screen high definition plasma tv...
Compensation for percieved inadaquacies...
fun to watch, but eh its just a tv. new years was great. i sat home and sipped pina coladas. what else is new?
Drinking alone => Alcoholism
i also did a 1000 piece puzzle. okay, i like doing puzzles. there is nothing wrong with it. plus, it was eeyore~! hehe.
Pravda to your mother.
okay, im usually one for bridging topics together, but i just don't know how to get this one in the mix. so here it goes. boys... when it comes to sex, i miss Bolshoi... alot.
LAVRENTI!
Get in here! ICE PICK!
but when i think about it, that's all he was,
Yes, you see that Bolshoi Capitalist is nothing more than massive phallus. Reminds me of Senate Democrats telling Reagan that our superiority over the Soviets was enough. Reagan said Nyet, ordered more, Soviets folded like cheap Afghan.
not that i minded.
Reference back to the When Harry Met Sally post for my feelings.
i just wish i had someone like that now, you know, to relieve stress. lol.
To be the victim of our own designs.
then ive been thinking about bob alot lately.
Comrade Nikolai can explain Bob better than I, but Bob is someone who rejected her for an Asian. That is why Nikolai loves to bring up Asians. I must admonish him for that...Sorry, even Bolshoi Capitalist needs good laugh.
i had one of those crazy dreams about him, so i know that soon he and the asian will split if they haven't already.
Lavrenti reports that they have been together for a while and, at least according to the girlfriend, there is no inclination that relationship will weaken.
i don't know what is up with him and that girl from shore, nor do i really care. i don't miss his sex lol but i do miss my once best friend...alot...
Her sexual history blurs in and out, like a drunkard watching their shadow in the light of the moon...
we had so many things in common. i mean, it sounds retarded, but its true. and i dont mean like politics,
As you can guess, she is a fascist. I mean Republican.
but i mean pasts and outlooks on things and just alot more than i have found in common with anybody else since him...in that same way atleast. i just can't describe why we were so compatible as friends, but we were.
zzzzz
and i learned my lesson to just say no to bacardi o. i mean, it cost me one of my best friends.
That, or your insanity. You pick and choose yer' options...
i think that somewhere down the line, we can be friends again,
Even the Russians have an Embassy in Berlin...Ah, I am reminded that it was for the occupation...
but that is not for a while. and i know that is partly my fault, but i
Self criticism is a vital part of the Marxist enterprise...Let a hundred flowers bloom...
definitely think that his lying and cheating had alot to do with it lol. i mean, i thought that jake hurt me as much as one could possibly be hurt.
Jake makes a return, I believe. Stay tuned to As the Quagmire Turns
after all, he has been the one and only love of my life,
An enviable position. Kinda like the Poles in '39...
but bob was a best friend first where as jake and my relationship developed as we became best friends. it hurt alot worse with bob. Also, jake never lied to me. Bob did. All for a fettish. I mean, he wanted to lose his virginity that night
Thus, she wanted to penetrate Bob...Questions?
and it is not like i didn't want to do it, but i just thought it would be better if it was special for him. well, a few days later, he lost it to an asian girl so i guess he just wanted the pussy
You now get the extended version of the drama about the Asians. Bolshoi Capitalist also notes his strong support for Japan, Taiwan, Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia, the Phillipeans, Brunei and the capitalists in China.
(from an asian which could be expected from a guy who dled asian porn all throughout highschool) and not for it to be an emotional thing with his best friend who he asked to be his girlfriend.
We all have likes and dislikes. Some people develop hangups about trying to force the human mind. See Rand, Ayn for the consequences of such actions.
whatever. I miss bob alot but there are certain things going on (ie calls and emails from his crazay asian) that i wish weren't.
That is, to say, Bob's girlfriend...
it is hard enough to forget as it is. but it is like it says in someone's profile. if you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they are supposed to be there.
Or you have an unhealthy fixation. Bolshoi Capitalist makes no judgment...
maybe there is a reason that i just can't forget what happened with bob. and maybe some day i will figure it out. i don't know. but i do know that i miss my best friend.
I doubt it. Your strategic myopia precludes you from ever thinking critically about your own actions...
okay, well here is another bad bridge and the reason for my return to the livejournal. Jake. If you think I miss Bob, that is nothing compared to the way I miss Jake.
She misses his organ.
We have had a very 'interesting' past, as many of you know, but whatever that is over.
"the West won the world not by the superiority of its ideas or values or religion but rather by its superiority in applying organized violence. Westerners often forget this fact, non-Westerners never do." -- Samuel P. Huntingdon
When I am home, I email him all the time and ask him what he is doing and all that jazz and this time he actually called me.
Please sit down, Prime Minister Chamberlain.
Mr. Hilter will be here to see you shortly...
I ask him all the time to call me and this time he actually does. I mean, when I had finally come to the realization that he wasn't going to call and I would have to go another 4 months without seeing him, he called.
Call me a doctrinaire neoclassicist, but something in me rebels at the notion that dramatically increasing the payoff of a given activity [TERRORISM] will not, at least on the margin, produce more of that activity.
It was almost surreal. We are hanging out Tuesday before I go see Chris.
Chris is her trainer. Bectel is the engineering powerhouse that built Saudi ARAMCO. Get my drift?
I have been so weird since he called and I don't really know why.
Giddy at the prospect that your terrorism brought down a free society?
He has been a great friend to me, but every time I talk to him, I still get that feeling, the same one I got the first time I talked to him at BBB.
zzzzzzzz
I mean, maybe I am supposed to get it. Maybe that is always the way it is with your first love. But every time he writes or calls? Today, jake said something on the phone. he said that he was fixing a skateboard for an exgf and i kept asking him who, hoping he would say carissa (isn't that an awful name?) which would make sense of his phone call. but he didn't say her, he said jodi.
Gag me with a spork...
the one he saw before nicole (who was the girl he was dating when i met him... i know im her favorite person in the world lol.)
Mine and Comrade Nikolai's...
this jodi girl supposedly played suicidal and pregnant and miscarriage and scared jake away.
N.B.: She pretended she was pregnant with me. The suicidal part she did not do, calculating that I would encourage such behavior.
now, jake says shes stable and engaged at 20 but whatever, im not one to judge lol. (if people haven't noticed, when atleast one of the members of a marriage is under the age of 25, there is statistically a 63% chance of divorce.)
Google power!
Anyway, so I am guessing Jake is still with Carissa, afterall he is 'hanging out' with her tonight. yes, i put hanging out in quotes for reason.
His penis is hanging out with her.
I feal bad for him.
I veal your pain too...
His college application to his first choice school was late.
(a) He is in high school. Or (b) He is in Klown Kollege. Take your pick.
Why? because he doesn't have anyone who really supports his decision to go away to school. I mean, I am so so proud of him. When we started dating, he was getting shitty grades at brookdale.
Behind Door #2 is a new car...
and then after me, he improved. he is now one of their best architecture students.
Paging Howard Roark
Okay, I know I shouldnt take credit, but I just feel like that was a reason that I was sent to Jake,
Allah fell asleep at the wheels.
but I can't figure out the reason that he was sent to me. There has to be one though, but, then again, I can't get him off my mind either and there has to be a reason for that, I just don't know it yet. I just feel so bad for Jake.
Fixation.
He has this 'baggage' as my mom likes to call it and her name is carissa (::cringe:: i hate that name! note: i don't 'hate' her persay, just the skanky name.).
Skanky name, skanky person. Which one is worse?
As stupid as this sounds, Carissa is holding him back from so much academically and dream-wise. I mean his Cooper Union application was late, and he doesn't know if he can even finish application.
Cooper Union -- the best engineering and architectural school in America...Average SAT 1390. It is so good it is tuition free, to draw the best minds in America.
Could it be because hanging out with her is more important than him working on his applications? I know that he doesn't know how long those fuckers take, but I do.
Name...Address...Social Security #...
Hell, she probably doesn't even know because, I wouldn't know, but I hear the application to community college isn't all that involved. I feel so bad for Jake.
I do too...
I wish I could be here and help him through his applications and help him get organized, but I am headed back to DC next week. I won't be able to help him. And Carissa is, in my opinion, selfish.
The Virtue of Selfishness...
She doesn't want him to go away to school point blank and last time we talked about it, he wants to go away and doesn't want her to go with him.
Hitherto, she wanted control of my life...
She thinks the longer he is here, the longer he is with her. I keep telling him the sooner he does it, the easier it is, but whatever. He doesn't even know what he wants anymore.
But I do! I do! I know! Appoint me Tsar!
I hate seeing him so conflicted and I hate feeling so conflicted myself. I still have so many feelings for Jake, but I don't know what they are.
Command and Control...
I don't know how to explain that. I know that if he is what I really wanted, I could get it, but he isn't. I don't know. Maybe he is. No, he is what I wanted. Past tense. And I know that it won't work out now.
Morgan, die Ganz Welt.
One, he is with the girl with the skanky slut name and two, he wants to go to school in LA. I mean, I told my mom today that I wish he would apply to American.
American University. Average SAT: 1223.
It would be great having him close by.
Like Austria and Germany.
And having and old friend close by would be such a help to get him adjusted.
She has a fixation on making permanent adjustments to people...
He isn't the best at making new friends and it is hard to transfer schools. I mean, he could even live in my apartment, low rent, until he found a place of his own (keep that on the dl from the rents. the don't like the whole mom is a lesbian deal so icksnay on the akejay. lol.)
My God...
I guess that I am just rambling now,
Yes.
but I would do absolutely anything to help him.
Human slavery.
I would give up everything for him and I just don't know why.
BUT NOT POWER!!!
I could barely speak when he called.
The Information Minister prepared my remarks...
I also know that the happiest I have even been in my whole life is when he first kissed me (even though he was sort of a wimp about it and it was more um mutual lol :-*)
Recurring theme....
, but every time he kissed me or touched me or whatever felt like the first time. And not just the first time with him, but my first time with anyone.
Mierda.
It was the weirdest thing ever. I can never shake jake.
Just at the neck...
I think he is supposed to be in my life, but not quite yet or something. He will be back, and as a lover or as a friend, I'm not quite sure.
Like the Palestinians to the Israelis - A Partner for Peace
Now, I am somewhat happy with him being a casual friend. I mean, sometimes I wish he would call me or email me more often but whatever, I wish that of all my friends at some point. But Jake is different. I used to think I was the first Jewish girl with a guardian angel, but now I think that maybe I am his. or maybe we are eachother's...
Together. FOREVER.
I know, I know. I am rambling.
And repeating.
But I have so many feelings and thoughts when it comes to jake; they just never end. I guess I will stop this now. It is an extremely long log
Thank you, I do what I can.
and I need to get some sleep. I think I am headed to the mall tomorrow to look for gifts for Amanda, Kavita, Becka, Michelle, and Grace. Due to that 3 week flu, I was unable to go shopping before I left DC so they are getting shopped for tomorrow. Alrighty, until next time....
Why, oh why?
Sunday, March 28, 2004
BUNGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay so ive been neglecting this. i dumped Bolshoi. im kinda mad at myself. i don't know why i was the one crying. um a whole dramatic deal happened with my car. i have some great stories to tell, just not in the mood to tell them yet. sorry. ill write soon though. after all the stress of gettin packed up for school is over. later skater~!
Later Skater. Bolshoi Capitalist does not make this up...
i really like Bolshoi, but sometimes he just pisses me off hardcore and gets me all stressed.
I miss the Cold War...
like we will be in mid conversation and he will turn on an away message and idle for 3 hours...
Civilization II waits for no one...
like right now, when i have a computer problem so i leave Bolshoi a message and 20 minutes later i call back and hes turned off his phone...
Turned off the phone, pressed IGNORE as fast as I could...either way.
whats up with that?!?
Praxeologically speaking, young Comrades, I ask for your input. If I never talk to a Party unless I have no choice, does that mean I want it to end?
and i have to get this thing done for chem which won't get done bc i have the whole computer problem in which i need Bolshoi's help solving.
Welcome to IBM Technical Support. For Hardware, Press 1...
i just want to cry. strike that. i am crying.
Sayano-Shushensk is the largest hydroelectric facility in the Russian Federation and the fourth largest facility in the world...
i want to tell Bolshoi that there are certain things i just wish he wouldnt do without sounding demanding and controlling.
See Jan Masaryk
Bolshoi and i just really need to have a talk. and if it ends with me breaking up with him, so be it.
Coat one, whitewash.
why did i have to meet a guy 8 weeks before we go back to school anyway. i just have bad luck and bad timing. i never do anything right.
Now now, you've enslaved a third of the world....
okay, so what happened last night... well basically, Bolshoi told me he was talkng to this incoming frosh from Rodina State that imed him. he was barely talking to me and i asked 'if someone asks, do u say ur single or that ur seeing someone?' he said that no one had really asked but if they asked now he would say no but at school he would say yes.
Bolshoi doesn't want to lie to many people.
Well, that really sent me off my rocker... I was like u said u were willing to try blah blah blah. So after an hour of a half (of online talking nonetheless), clarification was made.
The drama of online talking involves too many !!s or bold. On the phone there is a wider array of dramatic devices, all of which Bolshoi has no patience for.
We are trying,
We do not exist. Bolshoi is trying to leave. She is trying to take over the world.
but Bolshoi does not want to let people know that he has a girlfriend at school.
As those at Rodina State know, I do not mind that people know I have a girlfriend. Indeed, I have had a girlfriend for 7 months as of the 4th of April.
I mind that, in this case, my said "girlfriend," which, by the way, she is not, is insane.
I'm sure his roommates will figure it out soon enough, especially when i come to visit and they get sexiled, but if a girl was to ask he would say that he was single but not looking right now.
Bolshoi already does this so he can spend time uniting his hammer with Party Apparatchnik Katelyn's sickle...
Okay, i am fine with that, because we also agreed to being completely open and honest with eachother.
PERESTROIKA!
We are going to try being exclusive
Nyet. You will be exclusive with yourself.
and basically he called what we had a relationship last night.
Analogous to relations between the United States and Saudi Arabia or Iran...
Well, that was the first time that i ever heard him classify this as that.
Would you prefer I called it a mortal struggle for the fate and future of the free world?
It felt good to hear it. I posted the convo but its private... I hope that little eye means that u guys can't see it.
You'll see she has no compunction about privacy or matters like that.
I really flipped out at him last night and I think I should appologize, but I dont know what to say.
The issue is that I don't care less about what she has to say.
okay well i just imed him and sorta made a joke of it.
You know how the punchline of our jokes last night involved you going to the GULAG? Ha, ha...
i love making him laugh...
I confess! I confess!
Anyway, the next time I see him, I'm going to propose that we get eachother small lil gifts for our dorm rooms so that we have something...
Chain-linked fence. Barbed wire. An AK round. You get the drift, I am sure, Comrades.
I'm goin to go now and get ready to go to the mall... I need something semi-fun to do... so I choose SHOPPING!!!
And I, vomiting.
Until later...
Why must this go on?
okay, so what happened last night... well basically, Bolshoi told me he was talkng to this incoming frosh from Rodina State that imed him. he was barely talking to me and i asked 'if someone asks, do u say ur single or that ur seeing someone?' he said that no one had really asked but if they asked now he would say no but at school he would say yes.
Bolshoi doesn't want to lie to many people.
Well, that really sent me off my rocker... I was like u said u were willing to try blah blah blah. So after an hour of a half (of online talking nonetheless), clarification was made.
The drama of online talking involves too many !!s or bold. On the phone there is a wider array of dramatic devices, all of which Bolshoi has no patience for.
We are trying,
We do not exist. Bolshoi is trying to leave. She is trying to take over the world.
but Bolshoi does not want to let people know that he has a girlfriend at school.
As those at Rodina State know, I do not mind that people know I have a girlfriend. Indeed, I have had a girlfriend for 7 months as of the 4th of April. I mind that said "girlfriend," which, by the way, she is not, is insane.
I'm sure his roommates will figure it out soon enough, especially when i come to visit and they get sexiled, but if a girl was to ask he would say that he was single but not looking right now.
Bolshoi already does this so he can spend time uniting his hammer with Party Apparatchnik Katelyn's sickle...
Okay, i am fine with that, because we also agreed to being completely open and honest with eachother.
We are going to try being exclusive and basically he called what we had a relationship last night. Well, that was the first time that i ever heard him classify this as that. It felt good to hear it. I posted the convo but its private... I hope that little eye means that u guys can't see it. I really flipped out at him last night and I think I should appologize, but I dont know what to say. okay well i just imed him and sorta made a joke of it. i love making him laugh... Anyway, the next time I see him, I'm going to propose that we get eachother small lil gifts for our dorm rooms so that we have something...
I'm goin to go now and get ready to go to the mall... I need something semi-fun to do... so I choose SHOPPING!!!
Until later...
fuck the world, i am too upset to even write in here. Bolshoi is being weird. i will write about it when im calm.
I have to go to the train station to pick up an old friend of the Commissar's... The revolution has begun.
Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally.
Such a scene formed the praxis of every time I was with her...
It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now.
Carthago delende est!
You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.
Like invade the Soviet Union in Winter...
You know, I am really falling hard. I know I shouldn't be with 3 weeks till school and all, but I am. I did. I really really like Bolshoi.
And Bolshoi likes oil...lakes of crude in Caspian...I'm sorry, Bolshoi was day-dreaming.
I mean, we are taking things slower than Jake and I went, but I am starting to feel the same way about Bolshoi as I did about Jake.
Laverenti here: Jake's contact data is on file at the NID. The NID is the equivalent of the NKVD, but with slightly less...vigorous use of torture.
No, its not being 'in love' but it's more than just 'like'.
It's more like she's horny. F.E.T.E.
N.B.: Fuck 'Em The End
It is love, but not being in love, no not quite.
It's about the dichotomy between reality and coercion to make an unrealistic ideal work. Sorry, Ludwig von Mises typed that one for me.
It's like the step above really like and one below love. That sounds about right. So, um, let me tell u what we did on out date :-P
It sounds wrong, very, very, very wrong...
(Oh and before I forget, Sunday is a month! *YAY* )
Morgan, die ganz Welt.
So Bolshoi came to the door and gave me a hug... Very cute.
Get behind thee, Satan!
Then we drove out to the Frunze Mall. Well, I have definitely learned that Bolshoi is not a very fun guy to go shopping with...
Decadent exemplars of American capitalist materialist imperialism!
He doesn't like to go into stores. He waits for me outside. He went into a few stores.
Bolshoi likes to go into stores. Bolshoi will even shop from time to time. Not like Rodina, where there were shortages and queues...Bolshoi just does not like you. An ill will blows through this house...
The game store, the movie and music stores, the bookstore, and um CVS when I bought a disposable camera for me to take pictures with. FUCK! I forgot to take pics. Oh well, I'll see Bolshoi soon...
Trenchantly, there is no evidence that Bolshoi was ever with her. This is vitally important as the bedrock of postmodernism and deconstructionism is that there is no value to empty words...
Hopefully, like early next week or even like Saturday night would be good. Well, in the bookstore, Bolshoi bought one of my FAVORITE books! Choke by Chuck Palahniuk.
N.B.: Bolshoi is a Chicago-style libertarian. You may ask why? Because Bolshoi dislikes coercion...I was forced to buy a shitty book that was captivating insofar as it affirms every conservative theory about the innate evil of man...
He has to read it!
Thus, I went for reeducation...
I am soooooo excited that he thought it sounded great! I have a really weird taste in books and if he likes it, just one more thing that we have in common.
Bolshoi also has wierd tastes. Bolshoi bought the Sean Hannity book for 10$...
I also got some stuff at the mall... I bought the Warped Tour CD and the Simple Plan CD as well as Clueless in FYE and I bought a measuring cuppy thingy, a cool purple spatula, and a potato ricer in Williams Sonoma. Hey, I needed the kitchen stuff for school.
The most painful moment in Bolshoi's theoretical relationship with her was that trip to Williams Sonoma...
Okay, so next we checked the Freehold Theater and the next showing of American Wedding was in like and hour and fifteen minutes so no dice. We drove to Monmouth and the next show was in 30 so we bought our tickets (he didn't pay, which i really thought he would, but whatever...)
The once-bellicose Harold Macmillan now warned that he would resign unless the military operation was stopped, as the British economy could not stand the drain on its gold reserves and the potential of formal U.N. economic sanctions.
then went to Old Navy, where I saw [REDACTED FOR PROTECTION] I miss her; she was such a nice girl in a school of bitchy whiny snots...
The world is against me.
Hrm then we went to Walden Books and read stuffs in the joke section, which was alot of fun... I mean, Bolshoi and I have very similar senses of humor so it works quite well.
I laughed out of further fear of reeducation...
Okay, so we went back to the theater and, god, I felt so old. I swear, not one other person in that theater was old enough to drive a car... Well, the movie was GREAT! Bolshoi was actin kinda weird in the theater... It was cold so he put his hands in his shirt AND NOT AROUND ME...
Trenchantly, she is starting to realize the relationship between cause and effect. Cause - I despise her. Effect - I don't touch her.
Weird. At one point, I was inching over to grab his hand and he went to scratch his eye... I guess hes not good at PDAs.
At this time, I was with young Party apparatchnik named Stacy. She would argue the opposite.
Well whatever, we were all snuggled up and I had my head on his shoulder... And, okay you know how I'm horny and shit and um Bolshoi and I had nowhere behind closed doors to go, well the last scene of American Wedding had Bolshoi thinking about the logistics...
You would think that the word logistics would show how turned off I was. Instead, she took it as a mating signal...
Shitbrick was going down on Stifflers Mom in a bubble bath and Bolshoiwas like 'is that possible' and i was gettin all riled up. I just wanted to be like, 'i dunno. wanna go somewhere and try it out?' lol
NYET!
He was so sweet. We walked outside to go to the car and it was pouring so he was like stay here.
I took my dear sweet time walking in the rain. It is better to be soaked from the heavens than from her...
He ran and got the car and picked me up at the front of the theater. He's so sweet like that!
It was my darkest hour. And not because it was night out.
Okay, so I was hungry. We decided on dinner at Applebees. I just wanted to go there in hopes I'd run into the Applebees crew since I haven't seen them in a while and Chilis looked really busy.
International incident.
Well, we got there and there was this black man singing R&B with a back up on bass/guitar and keyboard. He was singing Luther Vandros. It was really good music, but really really loud. It was actually kinda romantic...
My ears, they bleed...
Awwww.... Well, at one point, Bolshoi left to listen to his voicemail because people kept calling.
I believe NID Vice-Chair Kimerling called...to see if I was still alive...
I TMed Mel saying 'Bolshoi is being weird.' He was quiet today, but it was still really cute. I get a response saying, and I quote, 'Kick him. Who needs men buy a vibe.' Well, if Bolshoi and I could have sex as much as we both wanted it, I wouldn't need one....
Economics lesson, Comrades! When I demand zero and she supplies infinity, the equilibrium point will be...zero, correct!
Why couldn't she just assault me and buy the vibrator?
He is AMAZING in bed.
Whitewashing starts here.
Anyway, so I ate a salad while he ate half-priced mozzerella sticks...
Price and quantity theory.
And the music was even gettin me more riled up.
My ears, they bleed...
So finally, when we got out in the car, I kissed him.... I just couldn't keep my hands off him lol...
You think that starting the car would give the bitch a clue...
So Bolshoi and I were making out in the Applebees parking lot lol.
Applebees - A family restaurant chain
Then he drove me home and we made out some more in my driveway. I could tell that he was *thoroughly* enjoying himself :-P Well, he had to get home since he told his Dad he'd be home at like 10ish...
So Bolshoi would hope...
I kissed him goodnight and he left :-/
Angels sing here.
Okay, so Bolshoi amazes me more and more each day.
Look at the variety and diversity of food in supermarket. Only evil capitalist system, with institutionalized oppression of proletariat, can provide like that!
I had an amazing time tonight. I enjoy spending time with him. He makes me feel good about myself, and, even on the day i fit into my not-so-fat jeans, that extra self-esteem boost helps me to get by. I really wished the summer didn't have to end. I really want to spend more time with my Bolshoi.
Zhukov informs me that the Barbarians are not at the Gates, they are inside the gates...
So last night was better than I could have hoped. Bolshoi mysteriously signed off without saying goodbye...
As I recall, I was talking to Satan. Satan is another apparatchnik who Bolshoi made very strong effort to suborn. Such efforts did not succeed until closing weeks of summer. It was then Bolshoi's turn to resist.
This is the difference between the Party of Revolution and the Revolutionary Government. As AP Euro teacher said, once Revolutionaries seize reins of power, they become the new conservatives...
So I left him like 2 VMs to call me and a lil note my away message for him to see. Well at 345 in the morning, I wake up to my phone ringing... IT WAS BOLSHOI :)
Shitfaced and crestfallen would accurately describe my feelings.
He thought I would have been sleeping ~ I was...
WHO DOESN'T SHUT THEIR PHONE OFF WHEN THEY SLEEP!?
He thought my phone would have been off ~ well it wasn't...
FELIX, YOU'RE FIRED!
So I picked up while like dead asleep and he was like what are you doing up~u should be asleep! And I said I know, I was, but you should be too. He goes, 'Well, ur friend didn't try to commit suicide last night.' That's true.
Old "friend tries sucide bit." Works every time to precipitate crisis in Imperialist circles. Chances were that I was talking to Satan.
And I feel kinda bad for feeling mad bc him helping his friend out in his time of need is a lot more important than him bullshitting with me on the computer...
Khorosho I redacted parts about her because they are relevant later, not now.
Now I'm home and habla-ing with Bolshoi. We are going to go to Barnes and Noble,
Bolshoi likes to read. Sharp analytical abilities are the difference between the West (Bolshoi) and the Rest (her).
then to the Freehold Mall and then to dinner and a movie... This should be fun... I want him to go clothes shopping... I wanna dress him SOOOOO bad lol..
Get him in a nice, tight, kameez
I mean, he looks good in ANYTHING! Imagine what I can make him look like in my picks... Hrm... Then again, maybe if he dresses himself, other girls won't go near him at Rodina State, and it will all be good lol... I've seen him dress... In shorts and a tee, he can't really go wrong, but, uh, on our first date, he wore the most hideous outfit I have ever seen on someone who actually isn't homeless... I'll try to get him to buy clothes lol...
Yellow Nikes, size 15 with khakis and a t-shirt. Is it so wrong to make a statement, Tovarisch?
Oh, and here's another thing... My mom wants to meet him pretty badly...
I want the capitalists to be reeducated. Will it happen? Absolutely not.
But, I think she is going to miss him. He is picking me up at 4:30. I guess I'll see if she can leave the office at 4. Hrm. What should I wear tonight? I mean we aren't going anywhere special, but I wanna look purdy, ya know? I guess I'll settle for jeans and um I guess a low cut top and flip flops... Hair down, maybe a lil make-up... I don't really know... Hrm... I have to eat a lil something then get into the shower.
With said low-cut, Allah's engineers tempted fate in building the High Dam...
So I guess that's it for this entry... I'll update after my date :-P
Update she will...
Beck's party was cancelled :( Hopefully, Bolshoi and I can spend the day (and maybe night) together anyway :-P Here's me being honest... My period ended like a day or 2 ago
The red tide of revolution subsides, but the tide of nausea picks up in pace
and im super horny and Bolshoi and i have no place to um... u know...
Gag me with spork. Lavrentiy, get me Russian steel...
Do u know how hard it is for me to keep my damn hands off that boy?!?!?!! Arggggg!
As strong as it is for me to keep my hands off Eastern European satellites...
Amanda, my cop friend, read my online journal, and she said that i should dump Bolshoi's ass, but I don't have that same feeling that I had about Bob. I don't Bolshoi is doing anything he shouldn't be doing, but um.... well... He got home today at 11ish and the first thing he said to me was that he had to take a shower...
Oh why didn't you listen to the pigs? Couldn't you have saved us so much time?
And yes, Bolshoi showers. Call it nekulturniy, but Bolshoi calls it good hygiene.
i didn't know he showered at night other than after we had sex...
Bolshoi showers when Bolshoi showers. Why is this so confusing to capitalist pig?
and he definitely didn't have sex with me tonight since we didn't even see eachother...
Bolshoi gets physically revolted at concept. Do not inspekt again!
I can't wait to ask him what he did tonight. I am thinking maybe he played basketball or went to a pool party or 6 flags or a waterpark or something....
Bolshoi goes to beach. Actually, Bolshoi could have met young party Apparatchnik. Timing is confusing, no?
I'm not sure but I am definitely going to ask. I really like this boy and I think that it possibly *could* work out even with us being like 8 hours apart when we are at school.
8 hours. 500 miles. Not nearly enough distance.
Okay, so chemistry still sucks. Amanda and I both agree~our teacher is a hick! First of all, she's a moron and definitely has that inbred look to her.
No superficiality here.
Secondly, today she was wearing this flower dress that had a big hole in the back... GROSS!!! And what is even more disgusting is that she wore like 50 year old birkenstock-wanna-bes with it... *cringe* It's gross. Well, I got a C on the test and I'm not mad about it.
As you will see, her pretentions to intelligence are the only things that keep her going. Bolshoi would like to point out to Party Congress that intelligence and common sense, or strategic vision are ***NOT*** the same thing.
I was too concerned with Bolshoilast night to study and I was late this morning because of my whole car issue so I had less time and I was taking the test while really upset...
Ah yes, blame Bolshoi. Blame inequalities of capitalist system. It's all the same.
Now, I am semi-working on chemistry homework... Really, I am waiting for Bolshoi to get out of the shower so I can call him and get the DL on what he did tonight.
The DL. Pravda to your mother.
So more about my car...
The guy from around the corner came... The part that was broken was my watershield over my engine... He just ripped it off because it was beyond repair. My car *is* driveable ~ THANK GOD!!! But I really shouldn't ride in dirt or rain. And since we are having like mad storms all week, once again, im anally raped! Well, if need be, Amanda will give me rides to school, but I want my car.
Bolshoi is out of the shower... I'm gonna go call him...
Felix?
Yes, Bolshoi Capitalist?
Next time, hide me a little better.
Yes, Bolshoi. You will be hidden behind a credenza next time...
He is picking me up tomorrow and we are going out... Hopefully, he can meet my parents~! I want to do something fun like mini-golf and then go
Bolshoi never falls for that trap. Praise be to Allah
to dinner and see American Wedding... He wants to see Gigli... I don't really know why...
Because Gigli is a disaster on the level of this fictitious relationship, Comrade.
I guess he figures that since no one will be there, we can actually have sex in the theater lol...
NYET!
Well, maybe not sex, but...
NYET!
Or maybe he just really has bad tastes in movies, although i wouldn't mind staring at Ben Affleck for 2 hours...
I bet he feels dirty now.
Okay, time to call Bolshoi...
Until we meet again...
Oh, unfortunately, we do...
Bolshoi is coming to the party! wooo!!! fun with my big sister and my big Bolshoi!!! what more could a girl ask for? :-P
A termination of
Brest-Litovsk
and half of Poland.
Welcome back to the Whitewashing of History.
WOOOOOOT! Becka, my big sis from the soror, is having a PARTY!!! And, since im not really supposed to talk to her for the first month when we get to school because of recruitment, this will be my last time to party with her for a while. So OF COURSE I'm going!!! Now, she said to bring boyfriends...
WE CRAVE MEAT!!!
Well, I really want Bolshoi to come and meet Becka, one of my favorite people in the whole wide world! I invited him so we will see what happens, but, either way, I am going. And I am going to have a GREAT time! David tells me that Bolshoi has had bad drinking experiences in the past so maybe he won't be hittin the bottle, but I will! It will be fun to drink with him and it will also be fun to party with him because its probably the only chance i will have this summer.
Bolshoi makes it a point to be straightedge more often than not. Trotsky errs in this post.
AND I CAN'T WAIT TO PARTY WITH BECKA!!! Hell, I just can't wait to finally party this summer... I don't get much alcohol at all... only the occasional beer or martini or margarita with my parents... not too fun. I'm not an alcoholic, I'm really not, but I need some alky in my veins before I lose all touch with reality... or um maybe before i actually snap back to it... i don't know...
You'll see the aversion to reality be a recurring theme...
On another note, Bolshoi is not online and his phone is off. Why? I have no clue. And although I would really like to know, I'm going to play it cool...
Bolshoi can only take so much before he gets ice pick...
From the back to the front, we shall address and post the whitewashing of history. Don't trip over the paint cans, let us begin. Things which compromise the identity of Bolshoi Capitalist shall be stripped.
Oy... speaking of guys.... here's the deal... Bolshoi Capitalist... 19 from Novosibirsk, graduated from Rodina State College, beach house in Sochi, hes 6'8" and amazingly good looking. He is really smart (almost too smart) and he is alot of fun to hang out with.
Bolshoi capitalist is blushing, really.
He is really sweet, but um not very sensitive, which bothers me sometimes. I really like him, and he tells me he likes me, but I don't exactly know where I see this going. You see, he leaves for Berlin, ..., on the 31st and I leave for DC on the 27th.
I will be taking the train to Petrograd...
That looks like a red light, but maybe not. Aviva, one of my roommates next year, lives 2 towns away from Berlin and she told me I could travel home with her.
Feliks, put this in a file!
Okay, well I mentioned that to Bolshoi and he got all weird, but I will get to that later. Bolshoi is very into politics. As a matter of fact, he lives his life trying to be a politician. He won't give me a yes or no answer ~ its always an indefinite answer and if I ask for a yes or no he says he can't give me a definite answer.
Da. Bolshoi reads rags of capitalism. He reads Wall Street Journal, has posted for Editorial Page.
Also, he has his agenda and doesn't change it, or compromise it for anyone, not even me, the girl he has been dating for like a month now.
The whitewashing begins. Bolshoi capitalist did not give permission nor consent to dating her, indeed I deliberately evaded mentioning this. At this point we are just friends. You see, even Bolshoi Capitalist can make terrible mistakes.
The part that really gets to me, is that I have only been able to see Bolshoi like once or twice a week because his parents were down at his shore house for a while.
Bolshoi has cute apparatchnik girlfriend, Katelyn. Katelyn was invited to full family function. Now, how does that happen?
Now they are gone, and he is being very weird about certain days we can hang out and what he wants to do. Oh and he also got very weird when I realized one of his friends from high school knew one of my friends from high school.
Notice the focus on high school. Not to make her sound parochial, insular, shallow or...well...high school-ish
My friend told his friend that we were seeing eachother and Bri got weird. I don't know what that means, it's just bothering me. (And on a side note, Kirov's (my friend) friend David used to live in the next town over in a huge house, but he has since moved. His family owns yaffa blocks, my arch-nemesis, which is funny; I really thought the Yaffa Block empire was ran out of hell.)
Da. Good friend's with Trotsky. Him and I really broke the ice...
Okay one more thing and then I have to run to lab. The thing that gets to me is that I don't know what Bolshoi wants. I consider him my bf or quasi-bf.
She did not get straight answer either. I considered her a borgouisie infidel who only served to oppress proletariat.
I don't know what he considers me.
Enemy of the people
I don't know where he wants this to go. I really like him, but lately there have been some communication problems, which is understandable since we haven't seen eachother alot recently. But he always wants to talk online, never on the phone. And last night, he signed offline without saying "goodnight hunnie :) sweet dreams"
Bolshoi's mother taught young Bolshoi to be nice to women, even those who oppose class struggle.
like he always says. As a matter of fact, he didn't say anything. He just signed off and 15 minutes after I went to bed, he signed back on... very weird...
Felix, get your timer ready!
im so nervous about meeting this dude and i don't know why.
Comrade Nicholai could venture a guess...
hes nice,
There goes the random chance that he could just be a horny capitalist...
im nice,
Yeah, you're a peach
but 2 nice people, usually amount to friends.
Ignoring your interesting use of a comma, this guy is going to run
and i wouldn't complain,
Yes you would, it's all you fucking do
but sometimes being lonely sucks.
No shit. It's amazing i havent heard you say that before. Do you have any thoughts on asian women?
i just want that person i can call anytime, that will cuddle when im feeling down, and i can be sure will see a movie with me that i have been dying to see. renting movies and going for walks...
Sounds like you want a weak, capitalist, homosexual male...
i kinda want someone for that purpose for the summer.
It's much more fun when they screw you over though, you will always lose in the end.
i mean, he seems so nice. i don't know what will happen, but either way i have a new friend.
Yeah, i'm sure you two will be tight.
would i want more? but of course!
Of course you do, you capitalists always want more.
but, if it doesn't work, it doesn't work.
Trust me, it just doesnt work, like capitalism.
i just hope that he doesn't think im ugly. thats my fear with guys.
Maybe you should get surgery to make you look asian
i mean my best friend who told me he liked me for 5 years dicked me over for asian sex.
I dont blame him, asian girls are hot.
whats a total stranger going to do?
He'll hopefully start tapping an asian.
well, this guy seems caring and nice so at least thats good.
The asian girl he picks up next week will think so too
(i have a migraine so im typing with my eyes closed...
I'm reading this with my eyes closed, so we're even
i hope im hitting the right keys.)
I hope bob is hitting that asian
me and him... we have these amazing conversations. we have so much in common and think the same way about so many things on so many different levels.
We stay up late and giggle and paint each others toenails and talk about the grand old days of the tsar...
i just hope he finds that attractive and not friendly.
A little trick we have in Moscow. After 3 bottles of vodka, everyone is attractive!
that is definitely my problem with guys.
I thought your problem was that your psychosis drove them to asians?
they always think im so funny, im so sweet, so honest, such a great advice-giver, such a great best friend.
And humble too! One thing can be said of you capitalists, you are not too full of yourselves!
i haven't asked him what he looked like,
Maybe he's asian, that would be the funniest thing since the October Revolution!
im not ashamed of myself,
Yes you are, as well you should be you stinking capitalist
i just don't want my size to turn him off before he meets me, because i am not a size 4,
Comrade Nicholai imagines this will be a selling point. You capitalists always want more.
but my personality shrinks me, or so ive been told.
Comrade Nicholai thinks that seems like weak capitalist propaganda.
his friend thought i was cute, maybe he will too....
If his friend thought you were cute his friend would be trying to get with you, not trying to pawn you off on his friend. One thing that I know about capitalists, they are out for themselves.
i wonder what we will do.
Well you'll meet, you'll fall in love, he'll fill out papers requiring you to stay 500 feet away from him, etc.
i hope i have something to wear.
Me too, dont be indecent, the gulag is full of indecent whores.
i don't have any comfortable cute shoes. im gonna to have to wear flip flops. there is a pair i like at cole haan, or whatever that store is called. i think ill buy them. they are 75 dolars, but well worth it! they are blue and green. adorable! or maybe ill go to nordys and get a pink pair.
I cant believe how many words i just read on the subject of flip-flops, capitalist pig!
in either case, i need something to wear.
Yes you do, Moscow is a cold cold place.
operation dress me will commence soon. when i figure out when and where. i need to look good.
Operation dress me? This reminds me of a joke from the mother country, "how many capitalist pigs does it take to dress a borgouisie?"
i wish i didn't have my thyroid problem.
I agree. but thyroid problems are indicitive of the immoral capitalist system, the worker's rebellion will solve all your ills.
it controls my life in so many ways that i wish it didnt.
Its an awful monkey to have on your back, just like your democratic imperialist system.
i mean god made me this way for a reason, right?
Yes, to weaken the capitalist system.
and if it isn't meant to be, it won't be.
It won't be.
but what if nothing is meant to be? what if that is just something that hopeless romantics tell themselves to make themselves feel better? hrmf..
You know what i love you whoring capitalist? I love when you get philosophical and ask rhetorical questions.
ill prolly mess it up like i mess up everything else.
If Comrade Nicholai were a betting man, that is where he would place his money.
but at least i will have made a new friend.
I hate people who talk like that, in the motherland we do not allow such drivel!
Welcome to the Whitewashing of History. I am Bolshoi Capitalist and my good friend Commissar Nikolai will explain the lies of the bourgeoisie capitalist pig dog stalker as we are made aware of them.
The format shall be ruthless fisking and exposing of historical precedent in a manner shorn of false consciousness.
Khorosho!
